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I'm tired, please let me sleep

Summary// You fell on depression and you hod it from everyone including to your boyfriend and father

(You are Sirius's daughter and, nope you are not related to Draco. Just imagine that Narcissa came from another wealthy family, and please also imagine that Sirius didn't went to Azkaban)

TW: mention of suicide, depression, self-doubt, overthinking and so on (If you are experiencing one of these, my instagram dm and my wattpad dm are open, I can listen to you and give you advices! You are beautiful honey! You are! Ilysm!)

Year// 5th year
House// Gryffindor

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"Are you ready pup?" Sirius asked her, snapping her from her imagination

"Oh? Yeah, I am. I got my robes and everything" she said and faked a smile on him. She couldn't manage to wear a smile or to be cheerful.

Recently, she fell into a deep depression, she was diagnosed by the muggle doctor. And she have prescription for her depression but it only made her feel worse.

She's highly doubting herself, being anxious. Self-cautious and overthinking. She can't find any reasons why she fell into a deep depression but she wanted to get out from it.

"Now, go you both might miss your train" Sirius said and hugged her and Harry at the same time. Both both bid goodbyes and went to the train.

Y/n changed so much, her usual cheery aura, was now covered in gloomy aura. Her eyes are puffy and deep, as if she never sleeps. She got more skinnier and she wore a hoodie

As soon, she sat down she started overthinking and doubting herself. She started to drown in darkness as she stared at the window. All the noises around started to fade away, her eyes become dull as she stared into space.

"Y/n? Y/n!" Harry exclaimed and shook her shoulders, she snapped back at reality and looked at Harry

"What?" She asked and looked at them. They looked at her, trying to figure out what's wrong with her

"I said, we're here already" Harry said and pointed outside, she nodded and grabbed her bags and they left.

As soon they went inside the Great Hall, she was greeted by Draco who was waiting at the doors

"Y/n, I missed you" Draco said and hugged her, she hugged him back, but she only hummed in response

"Something wrong, darling?" He asked, a bit worried because of her sudden gloom, she smiled at him and nodded

"I'm fine, just tired" she lied and went inside. Throughout the the entire feast, she didn't bothered to eat her food, heck she doesn't have any appetite at all. Darkness was eating her, she tried so hard to fight but she can't she's too weak.

"Hey, you okay? You seemed a bit down" Fred whispered to her ears as the feast continues, she nodded and smiled

"Yeah, just tired. I'm gonna sleep now, see you tomorrow" Y/n said and left the Great Hall. Everyone in the Gryffindor table noticed her gloomy aura, but decided to shrug it off, thinking that she's tired from the trip.

But no, she's not. She felt so much pressure on her shoulders. She felt everyone's weigh on her body. Yes, she excel in everything she have friends, a perfect boyfriend but she felt the pressure. She was tired, no scratched that

She IS tired of everything. She felt that she never felt any happiness inside her, she just want to lay down and maybe sleep until she's fine. Depression is not a joke. She hid her scars and she hid the pain.