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Lovesick (part2)

AN// This is the second part of Lovesick but this time I want to break a heart :>

Summary: You and Draco ended up in toxic relationship where, you both always fight ended up hurting each other.

Year// 5th year
House// your choice

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You're alone again, in the bathroom crying and trying to cover up the bruises you had. You thought Draco was different from the others. But he's just the same as them. You really love him but you were scared to let go of him.

Questions are clouding inside your head. He says he loves you yet, he hurt you. You did the same to him. Endless fight every time you two found a chance to hang out. You can't remember when was the happiest moment you had with him.

But what breaks you the most, is that you caught him, with Astoria. Making out. Instead of shouting at them. You laughed. Laughed and smiled.

You wanted to scream at them, but your craziness comes first. You waved at them and left.

While Draco? He realized how fragile and hurt you were when he made a mistake. He didn't know what to do. So he just stayed there. Regretting on what he did.

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Y/n's POV

"Y/n? Are you all right?" I heard Hermione's voice, as she entered the loo. I quickly wiped my tears and smiled

"Yeah, come on, they must be waiting" I said and grabbed her wrist. Hermione is the only one, who knew about my situation. She's the only friend I have. She's the only one who's there for me.

Today, we have muggle studies together with the Slytherin, that means, Draco's there.

I tightened my gripped, and Hermione seems to noticed it as she gave me a side hug. We entered the class, and my eyes caught something.

Draco's sitting with Astoria. They seem to have a nice chat. I can feel all the flowers inside me, rumbling and wanted to be freed. Hermione was about to punch Draco when I grabbed her robes, signaling her don't.

"Ms Granger? Ms. Y/l/n? Please take your sit. Today we are going to study muggle music. You all have 30 minutes to pick up an instrument and present something to us" our professor said. Everyone was pleased in the guitars and other muggle technologies while I choose the piano.

"I didn't know you like piano" I heard Harry said, and took the sit besides me

"Piano, is amazing. You can actually feel the scorer's emotion if you touched the keys." I said. I pressed a few keys, and Harry was seemed to be impressed

"Sorry, about you and Draco"

"Oh, we didn't broke up." I said, smiling at him. I looked into his eyes and he was sad, hurt and angry. I don't know why, but I just gave him a smile.

"Times up. Now I will randomly pick a student" I prayed silently that I won't be picked but luck wasn't my side after all.

The first one was a slytherin, and he do have a nice voice. All of us clapped and Our Professor called my name

I got up, not showing any emotions. I just stared blankly and sat down right in front of the piano.

I glanced at Draco, and we stared for a few seconds, until I started pressing the keys

Endless night
Love trapped us in a windowless room (Love)
What can we say?
Long for love even though it hurts every time (Love)

I started to feel hurt, and I feel all of my tears are going to fall down.

Get hurt and break down, I
Don't know what's making me hold on
If I leave anyway, I'll hate you in my pained state
We can't end it before it's over
It's as if we've been waiting for this agony

I can feel their stares at me, especially Draco. I glanced at him and his face says it all. His tears are streaming, yet his eyes were hurt, and angry

Maybe it's all just for a moment
What are we looking for so aimlessly
But I don't care, I'll do it over and over
I just need you in my life

Maybe, just this once let me feel safe. Maybe just for this moment, let me feel the love you promised. Not this kind of love where we hurt each other yet, say we need each other

We are the lovеsick girls
You can't just end this love on your own
We arе the lovesick girls
I'm nothing without this pain

Yes, I'm really nothing without this pain. Cause that's what love is right? Pain, endless fight and abuse. That's what love is. Yet I need something that it'll make me feel safe.

But we were born to be alone
Yeah, we were born to be alone
Yeah, we were born to be alone
But why we still looking for love?

But, we are born to be alone one day. Maybe that's what my life is? To be alone until my last breath.

Maybe it's all just for a moment
What are we looking for so aimlessly?
Looking at you with my anxious gaze
You're all I need, even if it hurts

What am I even aiming at? It's confusing. It's confusing me. I wanted answers.

Love is slippin' and fallin'
Love is killin' your darlin'
That fearless thrill returns once the pain subsides
Can't hear what you say
I'm happy with this pain
You pity me, but I pity you more for pitying me

It's true though, I am happy with this pain I've been feeling, and I pity myself so much.

(Lovesick girls) Everyone eventually leaves
(Lovesick girls) I've become numb to crying
(Lovesick girls) Hurt over and over again
(Lovesick girls)
But we're still looking for love

I already became numb. Ignoring everything cause I like this love and pain I'm feeling.

I pressed the last key and I received a lot of claps and compliments. As I go back to my seat, Blaise handed me a note saying that Draco wanted to talk to me.

I sighed and waited for our class to end. As our professor dismissed us. I went to an empty classroom and waited for Draco.

Once he got in, he hugged me, crying and kept saying how sorry he is.

"I'm sorry. But we're just both hurting each other. I can't do this anymore" I said and tried to break his hug, but his grip tightened.

"Draco, please let go of me. It's for the best. Besides I'm not mad that you and Astoria have a thing. I'm happy. I really am happy with this pain. So it's the best if we parted ways. And thank you for all the pain." I said, and wiped his tears. I kissed him one last time and left him

I quickly ran to Hermione and hugged her. I cried to her arms. I felt my knees getting weaker so she accompanied me.

"It fucking hurts. Yet I'm happy. I must be crazy Mione. Being lovesick makes me crazy" I said and everything went black