Filhaal

8. Changing ways

Author's Pov

Mahir felt guilt killing him since the day of engagement. Bela's tear filled eyes seemed to haunt him every time he close his eyes. The only way for him to forget the painful memories was the Alcohol bottle in his hand. 

Every time he remember her, he feel his heart squeeze in pain and that time alcohol helped him lessen the pain. And in the daze of the alcohol he would find himself crying and begging for her forgiveness. With the passing days the alcohol started becoming his need than a want. 

His changed behaviors was making his parents as well as his younger brother worried for him. The who ones used to hate alcohol now couldn't live without it. The guy who used to be very patient and calm now keeps on snapping and screaming at people for silly issues.

Andy kept on trying to talk him out of drinking but instead of finding any change Andy felt saw their own son slipping away from them. Once Uv poured the alcohol in the washroom and tried reprimand Mahir from drinking but to everyone's dismay he slapped Uv and warned him not to interfere in his life and that was the last time he talked to Uv. 

Having seen the last step of patience Sumitra decided to step in the situation for the first time. She couldn't see her son destroying his own life like this. The son whom she was so proud of is now swallowing himself in alcohol. 

At first she thought it was something small and he will eventually stop drinking but after the incident with Uv she understood her son was really doing away from them. She couldn't know what to do other than talking to him and advising him. With Rocky's upcoming marriage and Mahir's alcoholism she found herself stuck between. 

She knocked on the door two three times before a 'come in' was heard from the other side. She opened the door only to find a devastated looking Mahir. She felt her eyes tearing up seeing her son like that. 

Walking in she closed the door behind her. She looked around the room and found it messier than Uv's room which actually surprised her. Mahir always had his room clean and tidy. A sigh escaped her lips. She sat on his bed and looked at Mahir who was looking on the floor like a child who was called in the principle's room. 

"Don't stand there looking at the floor come here Mahir, I want to discuss something important with you." She called patting the place near her.

Hesitating slightly he walked towards his mother. Instead of sitting on the place she showed he sat near her legs. He placed his head on his mother's lap. Sumitra gently moved her hands though his hair before deciding to speak.

"What are you doing to yourself, Mahir? Why are you destroying your life like this, Mahir? Can't you see not only you but also the people around you too are getting affected by your decisions beta? At least tell me, your mother, child what is the reason for your recent doings?" She asked.

For a few minutes he stayed silent before he broke down on her lap, "Mom I love her so much but I can't reveal it to her. After a few days she is gonna become someone's wife and it hurt's so much mom. I don't want to lose her Mom yet I can't make have her. I feel so suffocated and her memories are killing me slowly. In these days I realized one thing Mom I can't live without her. I will die without her mom but then again she is getting married to someone."

"There is only one solution to your this problem Mahir and no it is not alcohol."

"What is it mom?" he asked wanting to end the pain forever.

"Confess your feeling to her Mahir, it will help lessen your sufferings. The pain you feel now while reviving her memories too will fade slowly. If you don't confess today then in future your own sub-conscious mind will destroy you slowly."