Nirvana and Coffee (Gerard Way x Reader)

To the end? pt. 21

I wake up in Gerard's arms and weasel my way out of them and stand up, careful not to wake him. I head off into the kitchen and start making some coffee, strong coffee, mostly for Gerard. I hear him slowly get out of bed and shuffle slowly to the kitchen. "Good," he yawns, "morning y/n.."

"Good morning Gee.. How'd you sleep..?" I say quietly.
"I slept well, I guess.. I'm sorry about what happened last night." He walks over to me and wraps his arms around my waist, resting his head on my shoulder.
"I'm glad you slept well. And it's okay, I understand why you were upset. I would've been too." I sigh quietly and he lets go of my waist as the coffee machine dings. I get out two mugs and fill his, handing it to him. I fill mine a quarter of the way and add a bit of vanilla creamer to it and some milk. We sit at the table and sit in a nervous silence while we drink our coffee.
"Baby- why's their blood on your hoodie?" Gerard asks me quietly.
"What blood?" I reply nervously. I bite my lip and hide my arm.
"Um.. never mind love." he says, shifting in his chair. He takes another big sip of his coffee, looking at the clock. "Sweetheart- I have some recording to do for the band.."
"What..? You said you were free all weekend." I whisper, upset that he has to go.
"I'm sorry, I really am. Uh.. when we thought you cheated, Frank was trying to cheer me up so he's bringing some other people up there for me to meet. We were working on some other songs so I'll be gone for a while." He says nervously.
"Other people? Already? Are you kidding me?" I snap at him, rather annoyed.
"I'm sorry baby- it wasn't my idea. It's too late for me to cancel now." he said, avoiding my aggravated gaze.
"No, it's not. Tell them you're sick or something." I say, staring him down. I don't want my boyfriend flirting with other people, especially not after what just happened between us. I have a right to tell him no.
"Baby please, we need to get the album done I-" "No, it can wait." I interrupt him, getting up and going out to the living room and sitting on the couch. I'm glad he dropped it about the blood, I didn't cut for 4 months before this, he'd be pissed.
Gerard sighs from the kitchen, grabs his keys and heads towards the door.
"where are you going?" I ask him, bothered by his leaving.
"Out." he snaps at me. What the hell? Why can't I be mad?
I text Frank and explain to him the situation, crying on my phone.
I slowly walk into the bathroom and open the medicine cabinet, grabbing out some razors that he has for shaving. I slowly pull up the hoodie and bite my lip as I slowly slide it across my thigh, whimpering as it starts to bleed- I grab out the bandages and quickly patch up the cuts. I hate it when I relapse, and I know he'll be upset. But hey, it's his fault after all.
I shouldn't say that. That sounds really bad.
But it kind of is.. I think. If he would've just listened to me and stayed home this wouldn't of happened- or I could've come with him- I don't know.
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I don't know what her problem is. I'm not going to do anything, she's the one who fucking cheated on me! I said it's fine. and I'll always say it's fine. But it's not. I don't believe her story, not one bit, and I don't care if I should. Maybe one of these girls will be more god damn considerate.
What am I supposed to believe? Her words, or what I saw? I just saw Y/N pressed against the god damn wall by another guy- I don't even want to know what happened after I drove off-
I love her, I honestly do, but I don't think I can do this anymore, I can't trust her. She kissed another guy, she apologized and everything and explained but I can't believe what she's saying, I can't trust it. I don't know what i can and can't believe anymore.
I pull up in front of the studio, currently Mikey's basement- getting out of my car and sighing, pulling my shirt down and biting my lip, not ready for what was about to happen.
If I'd of known they would be there, I never would've showed up.
"OMG, Gerard, it's so great to see you!"
fuck I hate that voice. I hate everything about them, I'm not sure why or how (they stole my money and got all their assets taken away) they got here but I'm not having it.
"Shut up, Raven. You know that I want absolutely nothing to do with you."
"Don't lie, silly. I know you missed me. And I missed you too." They lean in and try to kiss my and I push them away, accidentally touching their chest in the process- fucking gross.
I turn and get back into my car, rolling my eyes and just driving back to my house. Y/N probably left by now anyways, so who cares? Where else would I go?
I grab my key out of my pocket and open the door, taking off my coat and just throwing it on the floor, heading into the kitchen and sitting down in one of the chairs, burying my head in my hands and emptying my head.
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I bite my lip as I hear the door opening, trying to think of what to do. I could go out the window? No, that'd be stupid.
I grab a random book off his dresser and sit down, sighing and opening it up to read, stretching out the hoodie a little bit to cover the bandages.
I hear him sit down in the kitchen and it all goes quiet. He gets up after a minute and heads into his room- seeing me sat on the floor in just the hoodie.
"You're.. You're still here?"
"Mhm. Where would I go? my house is boring."
"Starbucks?"
He smirked at me. I roll my eyes at him and focus on the book. He sits down next to me and puts his hand on my thigh, and I blush but also get really damn scared. What if he sees the cuts- he'll be so mad-
He inched his way up my thigh and touched the bandage- he paused for a moment before looking at me.
"..baby-"
"I'm sorry. I just- I was just upset and I didn't think about it-" But before i could get another word out of my mouth, he picked me up and set me in his lap, crashing his mouth onto mine and kissing me passionately, pulling away after a second.
"I would drive on to the end with you, Y/N. No matter what happens. Remember?"
I smile slightly and bury my face in his neck.
"To the end."
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A/N
i'm sorry this took so long lmao it's not even good. i hate the way i wrote when i first started this so i'm taking a risk and restarting the whole thing, i haven't uploaded chapter one yet, so i'll tell you guys when i do. i'm sorry it's been so long. i'll try and keep up with the new one, and i hope you've all been doing good in the time i was away, and in the future :)