smile!! [yugbam]

exhibit 12

the room was decorated like the outside of the front of a small house in a neighborhood. the atmosphere felt so gray and rainy based on the choice of color scheme. different quotes were written all over the sidewalk and road. there was a huge crack on one tile of the sidewalk, that was in front of the fake but realistic looking house. a dandelion was growing out of the crack.

the house had a small front porch to it, where it had a podium holding a polaroid dated '941118' and an umbrella.

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bambam woke up, feeling extremely groggy from the lack of sleep he's been getting. he rubbed his eyes, looking around his room.

he noticed kyum was thrown face down across the room.

bambam felt a major headache from all the events that happened yesterday leading up to now. last night bambam could not stop crying. ever since yugyeom confessed to him, his heart has been beating nonstop to the point where it was almost unbearable. he put his hand over his heart again.

what do i want now? what do i truly want... is this really what my heart wants?

memories started to fill his mind.

"i, bambam, will never give up on my dream to open an art museum with you. just you wait. it will happen!"

"you're going to be seeing and hearing from me more often from this day forward!"

"you actually kept the blue cloth...?"

"listen to me once, and this final time. never... EVER talk to me again."

"bullshit. stick around if you wanna. i'm getting bored of being alone all the time."

"tada! you know in your painting today how the boy was was holding dead flowers? well, i wanted to change your perspective of that and give you fresh ones."

"i really like them."

"i was able to do it because i saw that you got hurt because of them. it frustrates me so much when they come and attack you."

"you're not keeping any secrets from me, are you?"

"of course not! they're a bunch of fucking assholes! you do know me the best."

"ok... then it's true you don't have a crush on me, right?"

" i don't. you're my best friend, bambam. it'll always be like that."

"you make me so happy. please... never leave me. everyone fucking hated me all my life. but ever since you stood by my side, i've been looking forward to waking up every day. to just spend time and see you. my... my best friend."

"i'll never leave your side. i promise."

"no wonder everyone wants to find a partner. who knew love was such a wonderful feeling."

"you see those butterflies? that's how my stomach felt kissing you."

"kissing me?"

"mhm. kissing anyone probably."

"it pains me so much that you get hurt... because of me... do you realize that you could avoid all of this if you just didn't hang out with me anymore?"

"if you ever feel like you're not worth it in these times, you are. because you mean so much to me. i care about you more than anything. it touches me quite a lot that in your twisted little mind, that you trust me too. and i guess i'll never understand why you're willing to stay after this."