Sunday Morning • Joshua ✓

Sunday Morning || 54

- sophia kim -

Joshua asked me A LOT about Heeyoung... What she likes and a lot of other things he really wanted to know about her. Just how long can I keep this act ? Holding myself back from confessing to the guy that I like.

For once I really wanna know how it felt to be loved... I just... I really wanna know.

Years and years living with being compared, hated, tormented... I just wanted to know how it felt to be loved. Like I'm already an adult and trust me I have never been in a relationship because of how the same cycle kept on going on and on...

I am just... Tired of it.

Tbh I'm more surprised that Joshua doesn't even notice on how much I freaking like him. Like, is he that dense ?? He have literally dated a lot of girls before and he couldn't even tell if someone's genuinely like him ???

Like, even his friends have noticed it sooner. Luckily they didn't snitch on me though. If they do I'm murdering them.

But it's better this way right...? If he knew, it'll be awkward between us since... He likes Heeyoung and if your friend have feelings for you, it's seriously awkward don't you think ??

If it gets awkward between us, I no longer could talk to him so I'd rather keep quiet about this.... It's better this way.