A Thin Line Between Love and Crazy

Grand Piano

Beyoncé POV:

I stood in Nicki's embrace for I don't even know how long. I felt everything from the day slowly wash away she made me feel better, but that didn't stop the tears that leaked from my eyes onto her shoulder.

"Bey baby please just say something, seeing you like this is killing me.." Nicki said as she patted my back.

"It's not my baby" I whispered softly. Saying it out loud hurt more than hearing it.

"It's okay Beyoncé you are going to get through this." Nicki said to comfort me.

"Everything I've done has been for nothing Nika." I cried.

She pulled away from the hug and pulled my face up so she could wipe my tears.

"Beyoncé listen to me, you got your life together for you. Not for anybody else, Yes the baby did give you the drive but this was for you Beyoncé, you understand me?" Nicki said as she looked me in my eyes.

I just nodded slowly before leaning back down on her.

"Come on Bey let's get you out of these wet clothes before you catch a cold." Nicki took me by the hands and guided me up the stairs.

She took me into her bathroom and ran a hot bath before she took the wet clothes that clung to my body off of me then gestured for me to get in.

I sat in the tub for while once Nicki left out. I just sat and thought replaying the entire night in my head on a loop.

"It's not your baby."

"I would never do anything to hurt you intentionally."

I felt more tears drip down my cheek as I played the track of their words in my head. I was so stuck I didn't even hear Nicki come back into the bathroom. I guess she noticed that I hadn't moved since she left so she leaned down and grabbed the wash cloth and started to wipe me down.

After she was done she drained the water and got a towel to dry my damp hair before drying my body off. She brought me out of the bathroom then dressed me into the Armani Exchange sports bra and briefs she had bought me last week. She disappeared into her closet for a moment before returning with an oversized tee shirt and some sweatpants.

"Are you hungry?" She asked me softly once I was dressed.

I just shook my head no and she pulled me into another hug.

"Bey I promise you it will get better." She whispered softly assuring me.

We stood in the embrace for a minute before she took me over to lay me in the bed. She tried to leave but I pulled her back to lay with me.

"Do you want to talk about it?" She asked quietly as she laid against me.

Despite shaking my head no I still spoke.

"...It's Keenon's baby." I still couldn't wrap my head around it I was just waiting for everyone to say this was all a prank.

Nicki let out a small gasp and pulled back to look at me. I could see the sadness that filled her eyes.

"I'm so sorry Bey. I can't even begin to imagine how you must be feeling." She leaned her head against my chest as she spoke.

Before I knew it I was telling Nicki the entire night that had been playing in my head on repeat. By the time I was done telling her the story her grasp around me was tight.