I've never liked myself to begin with.
Why do I have to suffer so much? I wanted someone to stay by my side, even though I expected it, it still hurts. I was wrong, kindness is pointless. I don't have a single clue about my future. After all, I don't even know why I'm here.
I'm scared, I'm weak, I'm afraid.
Because I'm the end you leave me,
So I put on the mask again.
I know I'm whiny, annoying and weird. So does it make me selfish for wanting someone to love me as I am?
And I think, no. I deserve to feel okay - I may not feel okay all the time, maybe even just for brief moments but I deserve it nevertheless. The comeback is always stronger than the setback.
Do it, no one can stop you from being you.
Once you truly believe yourself worthy of love, you will never settle for anyone's second treatment.
To walk away is Wisdom.
To be able to is Courage.
To walk away with your head held high is Dignity.
Sometimes we are pulled down by thoughts of insignificance. In all of this infinite space, with all of these possibilities, why should we think we matter? And we don't. Not really. For some that is okay, preferable even. They want to enjoy the sweet nothing of existence. For others, they want to be something. But you cannot just wish for it, go out and make yourself worthy of sitting amongst galaxies. It's time to choose, just a spec of life or a bursting star? Neither option is wrong.
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The woes of a Modern Day Sappho
SpiritualWoes from thou, a book about yours truly and the documents of life's ups and down: the experience from someone broken and lost with a memory to assist. I suffer from many hardships: mental, physical and emotional. I have poor health and many mental...
