My Last Love (dream x reader)

Chapter 22

And just like that she found happiness in her pain.

When she thought of growing old it sounding like absolute hell. She didn't want to experience the pain of death, but somehow the pain of living seemed worse because maybe death hurts less than life.

Clay saved her.

She wouldn't go far enough to say she wasn't depressed or she was always happy but clay saved her. She wanted to live. For him. She was happy. With him.

For the first time in 11 years where scars were painted on her body, where her breath was saved for every night she had to fight, she wanted to live.

Clay woke up the next morning and immediately got dressed and walked to y/n's apartment. He knocked on the door and soon y/n emerged from the dark house with the brightest smile on her face as she hugged the love of her life.

They went inside and watched their show together cuddling on the couch not a word spoken. This is all they wanted. Each other.

They decided to go on a drive. It was rainy out. Clay stoped at a gas station and said "I'll be right back you stay here" he left and came back with two bags of jolly ranchers.

He immediately grabbed some blue ones taking a few and handing a few over to y/n, they ate them as they drove. No destination in mind. They just drove.

Later on they arrived back at their apartments, just as they pulled in a song they both likes started playing (Play fragile by kygo) clay turned it to max volume pulling y/n out of the car in the rain.

They danced together. As the rain poured on them they danced without a care in the world. *cause baby I'm fragile I'm fragile* the song sung.

As the beat dropped clay pulled y/n into a kiss. Kissing his heart out. They pulled away giggling.

It was in that moment she knew there was nobody else for her, he freed her soul in a way that made her fall madly and irrevocably in love.

And in that moment much like before he was sure. He fell in love with her. When she was dancing in the night sky the only light coming from the moon, laughing, she was happy. That's all he ever wanted. For her to be happy.

They went inside y/n apartment after a couple minutes. Soon falling asleep in each others arms,

Happy.

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Over the next few weeks clay had been super busy with YouTube, he was barley talking to Y/n she understood it's work he needed to do it, but that doesn't help depression.

She had fallen into a dark place that was too familiar too her it hurt.

She tried to call him and ask for help but held herself back as she knew it would mess up his recording.

She hated what she was about to do, but she did it. She cut herself. Hurting her self until she couldn't anymore. Just leaving her legs a bloody mess on the bathroom floor.

She hated this. She hadn't hurt herself since the day they met. He helped her more than he knew.

But depression overtook her. She always knew one day she would loose her battle to depression but when the day came, she didn't want to go, for the first time I'm 11 years she wanted to stay for him.

She wanted to so badly all she wanted was to stay for him to make him happy. But that's not how that works she can't stay for him. She had to do what she knew was best.

She loved him and he loved her, but like most of the best love stories ever told, it just wasn't that simple.

Sometimes happiness just skips some people, and there's nothing we can do to change that.

Sometimes giving up is the only way out.

She tried she really did try.

Everyone loves being a part of something. That's the most human thing of all, wanting to be included. Craving people, craving connections. Everyone survives off the idea of being 'together'. We live off relationships, friendships, family's, because it makes us feel like we have a place in this big messes up world

Lifeless on the floor, with one last breath, but a smile painted on her face as a sign of happiness as she then fell into a never ending sleep.

She finally got the happy ending she was waiting for, though she's lying on the floor without a heartbeat, she's happy somewhere.

She hadn't been answering clays calls so he went over the door was unlocked. He walked in calling her name. No response. He walked into the bathroom, seeing her lifeless body and blood all over the floor he grabbed his phone and dialed 911

He screamed her name.

There was no pulse.

The blood under her was drying.

She was gone.

His girl was gone.

He sat there cradling her body. Soon enough the police arrived. They took her body from him. He was the only one listed as her family so he had to decide what was going to happen.

He begged them to save her.

She was gone.

Their was nothing they could do.

They left with her body.

He sat crying on her once bathroom floor covered in his lovers blood.

He managed to open his eyes to see a note.

He grabbed it being as gentle as possible while his hands were shaking still sobbing.

The note read:

"I hate this world. It's a terrible place, filled with terrible people but when I met you, I realized that since the world had you in it, maybe it wasn't so bad after all. You make up for all the hateful people, you make up for every horrible thing the world has shown me
My love, you are certainly one of a kind. When you look up at the sky for the final time, I hope that my love and it's weight will linger and I hope you know the story of us will never truly end. I love you clay. Never forget that.

Love
Y/n"

As it seemed impossible he cried even harder. He always told her 'see you on the other side' but he never thought she would get there before him.

He looked at his phone. The Lock Screen of her. As he started into her soft hazel eyes, seeing everything that made him fall in love with her, and getting lost in the hazel forest, once again.

-weeks later-

He had always wanted to bring her flowers, but not like this, not at her grave.

And for as long as he lives he can say without a doubt in his mind he can say he found his forever.

With that her story ends. But their story will live forever in both of their hearts.

A happy ending is never a promise, it's a wish.

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