Comeback to me, Wife!

Chapter 18: Starts to fight for myself

Cailey's POV

We were happily talking about stuffs when we heard Mrs. Gerlan walked and said Lady Leanne was back and she was with someone. She told us she wasn't able to recognize the guy as it was in his car, but Leanne was leaning on the car window.

"Are they still outside? Why didn't you tell them to come in?" Dad said.

"I called Lady Leanne,Mr. Soren but she said not to interfere"

We were curious as to who was this someone Mrs. Gerlan was saying so we decided to take a look on it. But what we saw outside the house made me want to go back inside.

It was Leanne hugging Russell.

"I called your 'husband' you know." I heard Ally whispered to my ears so I looked at her, confused.

"Is that why you left me from your room earlier?" I asked and she just shrugged."But why?"

She rolled her eyes and looked at Leanne's direction. She also looked behind me, so I followed her gaze, realizing that she was checking if dad and mom were not that close to our position, she then started to say things.

"I heard sister Leanne before she went out to meet someone which basically I know who it was. " She started "She was talking to your husband, I mean, your soon to be ex-husband, on the phone when I went to the bathroom. I had a feeling that she was going to abduct your ex-husband from you!" She whispered again.

I wanted to scorn when I hear her say abduct. How and why would Leanne abduct Russell? I mean, why would she do that?

"She liked Russell you know. I'm telling you this, though she's my sister by blood and you're not, but you know exactly why. I mean you get my point right?" Ally talked again as if she had read my mind. " Okay where are we again? Oh, back to as why my sister liked your husband. Well, who wouldn't like your husband by the way. He has the looks, the wealth, the body and not to mention the charismatic appearance. Get used to it."she continued raising her brow "But unlike anyone, no matter how many women adore or liked him, even had the guts to have lust on him. You as a wife is all that matters. He still wants you as wife right? He wouldn't let go of you right? Then use it. You have more power than any woman, and that my sweety, is the best asset. So hang on. You still have a long way to go. " Ally tapped my shoulder and lastly, she said "And it starts...now!"

He has a name to protect. Although everyone knows and was aware that he was secretly married to someone, a lot of people still don't believe it. Claiming that they will only believe it, if they, themselves, would see the wife, who Russell married to, and that was me.

I've always been hiding. Yes, I can go out, I can go anywhere. Yes, I married the man I loved. But I was lonely. It's like I married to someone who doesn't even exist.

But now, I'm not gonna be like that.

"What are you gonna do now, Cailey? Are you just gonna stand here and watch these scene?"

I breathed deeply, it feels like I've never breathed fine since God knows when was the last time. I don't even know why but I felt the confidence. That confidence which I thought I would never have when I was still in love with Russell. I was his hidden wife. No one knows about my identity as his wife because we chose to hid it from the public. At first, I thought it was for our own sake but soon I realized that it was all for Russell's sake only. I felt pain but I would never let myself feel that again!

I smiled at Ally, thanks to her I finally now know what exactly I have to do. No, it's more like, I now know what exactly I should have done back then. It was to stand up for myself.

So then, I walked gracefully towards them. I wasn't feeling nervous at all, I actually felt the lightness in my body. I saw Russell pushed Leanne away from him and was about to say something when he saw me approaching.

He looked at me, blinked, and frustratedly messed his hair.

When I reached near them, I looked at Leanne, who's face were now irritated and damped.

"Done crying yourself out?" I asked her patiently. "You know what Leanne?" I took my hanky from my pocket and wiped her face. " It wasn't that I don't know you liked my husband. It's just that, I was the first." I was still wiping her face though she kept looking away "But of course, that was before. I know. It was awful, if I'd given a chance to retake the past?" I paused for a minute and "I would still marry him." I even have the guts to smile despite being aware that Russell was listening and seeing the whole scene"But not because I still like him, but.."

I wanted this. I never felt so much lighter than this! I went near her ear and whispered the last few sentences "But because I don't want him to be happy, I wanted him to know what it feels like being tortured inside, so you need to step back, get away from him and reflect your damn self, am I clear?"

I saw how she reacted. She was stunned, I guess. She was always used of me being timid and being indecisive. Yet now, I have the courage to threaten her. Must be new to her. I then fixed her blouse and tucked those escaping strand of her hair, behind her ear.

"You know I would never hurt you, or do anything bad to you, for you are Mom Hanna's daughter and I respected her. But I do hope that you won't step out of the line,yes right?"

Seeing that she was unable to react or say something either.

"I thought you were on a date? Why are you with Russell?" Dad asked but Leanne just run and went inside the house so we were left.

"I saw her on my way here, so I gave her a ride." Russell explained.

After seeing Leanne gone to the house, I proceeded to look at Russell. He was on the verge of exploding, and that exactly how I wanted him to feel.

He might be ashamed being caught in the act. Well, I am surprised if that was the case. Too ashamed being caught with my parents but when it was me, he even threaten me with his stupid divorce papers.

"I clearly remember how I said that I don't want to see your face ever again, but here you are!" I laughed sardonically "I am seeing your face again, it was too unfortunate." I smiled sarcastically.

I saw how his face turned sour. I wanted to laugh. For the last three years, for damn years I've always felt that way. I also remember, how I pathetically waited for him every day and night, how I waited for him to even just look at me, to hear me out, to stay! But all he did was ignore me, show me how disgusted he is. I felt so little, I just wanted him to look at me, but he was so hard.

My heart can't reach his. And so I gave up.

"I see that you wont stop bothering me day by day. Then fine, I'll let you be. You're not going to sign the damn divorce paper? Then fine, be it, we're not divorced. Do whatever you want and i'll do what's mine." He looked at me, intently.

"But let me clear this one thing to you, Russell." I looked at him in the eyes.

Bringing up all my bravery. I smiled at him, it was not the smile that finally, I said it all, but it was the smile that finally I understand.

I understand how life could be.

How life goes for me when tomorrow comes. Because finally, I gave up on him.

I continued "I am your wife, only in papers..but you will never have my heart, again!"

And starts to fight for myself.