the story kicks off twelve years after the death of Beyoncé. The drama is far from over, there will be a bunch of twist and turns in this new chapter of Nicki's life that she will not see coming.
This is the second chapter of Don't Hurt Yourself, r...
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Octavia Knowles
We had about three more hours on the road, the closer we got the more my anxiety increased. My mind was all over the place thinking about so many scenarios that didn't need to be inside my head.
Maybe going there is a mistake, but what if knowing the truth will stop the dreams? I could learn the whole truth about who I am and why I was put through all those things. If I were to ask my so called mother she'll just lie, mom too. This is the only way for me to know the truth. Neal is here with me, so is Bailey, they have my back on this so everything should be fine.
I told Neal about my nightmares, about how I wake up in the middle of the night clawing at my skin to stop the feeling of dirty men touching on my body. I told him about the woman who looks like me and the man who I think might be my father. He told me I was crazy at first, that my parents have always been Nicki and Beyoncé. But I made him think.
We talked about our childhood going over everything we could remember. I talked about the time I was in this room with a bunch of other girls, I think I had a fever that day. I remember being too weak to even move and one of the girls held me. She was older than me but we were all pretty young. I asked Neal about that day and he said the girl might've been Emani. But when I asked her about it she had no clue what I was talking about.
She did remember that day her dad was gone all night. When he came home he was whispering on the phone about gifts, Emani only remembered that because she thought she was getting new toys. That's when all of us started reminiscing trying to put together all the pieces until it clicked. I was adopted, Beyoncé took me in when I was four. That was around the time things with my real parents got bad. I don't remember what bad thing exactly but it was bad.
This was all great but I needed proof. That's how Bailey got into this. She was listening in on my phone call with the others. Bailey later told me about the time she saw Beyoncé in her office. She was looking through some folder and talking on the phone with Nicki. The conversation was about me from what Bailey could hear. But when Bailey came in the office she slid the folder in her desk. Bailey thought nothing of it at first until she overheard my conversation with Neal and the others.
She had the bright idea to break into the office to get the folder. I said no, we could've just asked about it. Breaking into the office would just get us in trouble. That's when Neal told me about the Hive and his training. Resulting in me almost flipping the hell out on him. Bailey thought it was funny to boast about her being apart of it so I kicked her ass since she was in my room. I don't find being trained to be killers funny nor exciting but there was a bigger issue at hand.
Somehow they convinced me to just come along and they'll find the folder. But we had to sneak in when everyone was too busy to notice. Tonight seemed like our window of opportunity, I could tell by Nicki's face an argument was about to take place so I shot Neal a quick text. He was already on his way over, he'd overheard a conversation with his father and the adults were going to be occupied all night. Bailey came along, she practically forced her way in on this. I wanted her to stay home and cover for me but she decided I needed her more. It was late and I didn't feel like arguing so I caved in.
