Sandcastles

35

Octavia

We've been driving around for three hours, Bailey is gone. It took us maybe ten minutes to get to the car and circle around to the back of the hotel. Within ten minutes she just vanished. I'm tripping out of my mind right now and her being gone is not helping.

With no luck finding her our next location needed to be a hospital. Neal was hurt more than he realized, he almost crashed the car a few times. I had to force him to switch with me in order to get us to the hospital. To make matters worse he was dead weight when I got us here. I barely kept him up on his two feet.

What the hell even happened? One minute we're joking around then BOOM, fucking chaos. Neal is laid up in surgery, my sister is missing and I'm standing outside alone loosing my mind altogether.

Way to go Octavia, you screwed up yet again. Congratulations girl, you've somehow made your own life a fucking shit show. It's like why, why am I still alive? My stupid idea brought us out here and now look, look at all the fucking mess I caused. What was the point, Beyoncé should've just walked away and let me choke on my own filth. Maybe everyone's life would be so much easier.

I mean what's the point right, "miss Knowles?" His doctor, damn Neal's surgery is over already, "the surgery went great, your boyfriend was lucky you got him here when you did. He will need to stay the night, it's nothing major just routine protocol. Do you have any questions?"

"Uhm, is he up?"

"He's not awake, but you are welcome to see him." Do I even want to see him? He's stuck here because of me, why would he want to see me? "No thanks, I'm fine out here."

"I think you should come inside, maybe we can take a look at that cut on your head."

"What?" I touch at different spots on my forehead until I feel the stickiness of dry blood. Oh damn, I probably got this back at the hotel. There was so much happening I didn't think that I could've gotten hurt. My focus was on everyone else, more importantly Bailey.

Shit Bailey is still out there. I don't have my bag, it was left at the hotel so there's no way to call her. She didn't even have her bag when she squeezed out of the window.

What should I do? I can't just leave him alone, what if those guys weren't alone? But what if Bailey is hurt, I can't leave her alone also. I can't be in two places at once. "Miss?"

"Oh right. I'm okay, it's just a scratch...I have to go, if he wakes up can you tell him I'll be back."

"You seem a bit out of it, maybe you should come inside and I'll help you."

"I-I can't stay I have to go!" I didn't mean to sound so rude. The nurse is only trying to do her job. She seems really nice, Neal should be safe with her. Bailey on the other hand, she's not.

Bailey is my responsibility. I have to go find her and fix my mistake before it's too late. We can come back her after I find her. Hospitals have phones right, we can use one when I come back or maybe Neal will once he wakes up.

She couldn't have gone far, I should head back to the hotel and retrace every possible step she might've taken. Maybe Bailey didn't run, whenever we're fighting she likes to hide. What if Neal and I went at this all wrong? What if instead of running away she hide somewhere close by. That makes more sense to me than her running off blindly when no one was chasing her. I bet Bailey was close by all along and I was too shocked to even think about it.