Scarred {completed}

Chapter 19

Beep Beep Beep Beep...Not again. I swear I have the worst luck ever. Back in the hospital. But this time I actually have sight, I can hear the beeping of the machine- a slow but steady beat. I tried moving my neck. Right. Left-my heart sank it felt like it was breaking. "Oh my God!" I was freaking out, "somebody please! What's going on?!?!" A doctor came into the room. "Please be calm miss. Other patients are trying to rest." "No! How can I be calm?!? Look, look does that look good is everything fine? No!! ! Tell me what's happening- I'm so confused." I started tearing up. "Miss, what are you talking about?" "Right there! Please tell me what's wrong!" There's nobody there miss" "No doctor! On the bed, look on the bed!" The doctor walked over to the note- "here you go." I took the note from him and I read it to myself: dear Marrissa, your friends Louis, Harry, Amber and Julia are all doing well. We had to move them to different rooms for treatment and examination purposes. Sam, however got the worst of the crash. I'm sorry, she is in intensive care as we speak and she has very slim chances. Sam has suffered internal bleeding in her brain. Please if you feel ready come down to intensive care to say your last goodbyes....I looked up to the doctor with flooded eyes. "What do you mean our last goodbyes?! She can't be dying! This was supposed to be our best time together! When she would meet her idols and I would see my best friend in the world!! I hate my fucking life!" I got up from my bed. "Where are you going?" The doctor asked me. "To see my dying friend!!! What the fuck does it look like?!?!" Angry. Mad. Depressed. Sad. Gone. Lost. I didn't wait for the doctor, I stormed out of the door and found my way to the intensive care unit. I saw her laying there with Harry, Louis, Julia, and Amber around her. "Sam!!!" I said running to her side. She had her eyes closed and looked like she was in so much pain. But she smiled when she heard my voice. "Marrissa, I'm going to be ok. I'm going to Heaven. I know this was supposed to be the best time we've ever had but everything happens for a reason. You'll learn to live without me. One day we'll all be together again. I just want you all to know, Julia, Amber I've loved you guys forever you're my family. And just listen. Don't be sad when I'm gone. Just remember all the memories. The inside jokes. You know only grown men wear bras. I just love you guys so much you have no idea. Louis and Harry I just met you and youre my idols and I love you too. Promise you'll take good care of them. And dont break their hearts, I love you. " she whispered out. We were all crying rivers. "Sam! Don't talk like that, you'll be fine, you'll be fine!" I cried holding her hand. "Tell my parents and Donny that I love them. This was all for the best." "Sam, you'll be fine!" We all cried out. The beeps got slower very quickly. "Sam! You'll be fine! You'll be ok!" The beeps stopped it was a steady, deadly, monotone noise. "Sam!!" Me, Amber, and Julia looked at eachother and cried our eyes out. Louis and Harry came over to comfort us. "Shh...everything's going to be all right" Louis put his arm around me. "No it's not! Nothing's going to be the same now. With one of my best friends gone, it feels terrible. And I'm the one who caused it! I'm a fucking idiot! God! Why Sam why her family why us? Such an asshole!" Louis took my hand and led me into the hallway. "Marrissa it's not your fault. It was Harry's fault if anyone's. Look, Sam wasn't too mad and upset about it. She was cool. The point is I know it's very hard to try to get over someone's passing, especially if it was someone very close too you. Believe me, I know. Just try for Sam, for Julia and amber, Sam's family, for you." I felt like he really understood me, I didn't know how. I don't think he's ever loss someone close to him. "Ok, I'll try. Please God take care of Sam and her family." I went back into the room. Julia and Amber were crying over Sam. "Guys," I said trying to hold back my tears, "everything's going to be ok, alright? We'll get through this together. As Sam called us sisters, we will always be there for eachother." "Ok, I just cant believe it. I miss her" Julia said crying. Seeing them cry made me cry. "Me too. We were supposed to pick out wedding dresses together and help each other out on guy stuff. I miss Sam so much." "I know guys, I miss her too." We had a group hug, including the boys. The nurses came into the room and took Sam away so we decided to leave. Without our bestfriend. Without our sister. Without my roommate. Without my honey. It felt so lonely and lost, like we were missing something. And we were. Without Sam. Sam Derrils.