Scarred {completed}

Chapter 21

I woke up late at 10 AM and got ready for my 1 o'clock flight so that I could get to JFK Airport in New York by 8 AM. I sat up in bed and saw 5 suitcases by the door, 2 more than what I packed. I literally rolled out of bed and ended up falling on the floor. I started laughing at myself and then Louis came in the room and laughed at me. "Did you fall out of bed?" he asked in his high pitched voice because he was laughing so hard. "Ha, yeah" I said laughing and helping myself up. "What time is it?" I asked him while fixing my shorts. "10:07" "Crap! I have to get to the airport in a half hour!" I picked random clothes from my closet, took a 5 minute shower, did my makeup, and fixed my hair. When I got out of the bathroom Louis was sitting on his bed slipping on a pair of his old Toms. "Yay! You're gonna wear your Toms?!?!" I was so happy. He hasn't worn them in forever. "Yah, they'll be comfortable on the flight." "Did you just say on the flight?" I jut stared at him. "Yeah. These shoes will be comfortable on the flight to New York" "New York?!?!" I screeched. "That's where we're going, isn't it?" I went to say something but then Harry came in the room wearing sweats, a T-shirt, and a beanie, "when are we leaving? I need to call Liam so that he can drop us off at the airport." I screamed, "you're coming too?!? Are guys trying to make me have a nervous breakdown?!?!" Harry just ignored me. "So what time?" "10 minutes" Louis responded putting his beanie on. "So I'm guessing you guys are already packed too?" "Yeah, I packed" Louis said pointing to the two extra suitcases that I noticed earlier. "And you mister?" I looked at Harry and crossed my arms. "I did too. Don't worry mommy" he made fun of me. "I swear you guys are TRYING to kill me." Again ignoring what I was saying Harry disappeared into the hallway. I turned to Louis with my arms still crossed. "And what do you have to say about this?" I was angry but kinda relieved in a way that they were coming along. "We have to go" he said taking 3 suitcases and leaving the room. I put on my beanie that Louis gave to me. I checked myself in the mirror for one last time, got my phone and it's charger, got my 2 suitcases, and went downstairs. I saw Harry, Louis, and Liam in the entry way. I put my cases down and walked over to them. "Hi, I'm Marrissa" I said holding my hand out to Liam. "I know. I saw you before but never really had the chance to say hi. So hi Marrissa, I'm Liam" I let out a giggle, "I know, I'm a huge fan" Liam ignored my hand and gave me a hug. "Don't pass out!" Louis shouted remembering the first time I met him. "Shut up" I smiled pulling away from the hug. "I love you" Louis said dragging the you. "I'm still mad at you" my smile faded, it was very hard not to smile when he said that he loved me. "It's 10:25, we should go. Its gonna take forever to get through that crowd" Liam said. "But there will be a small crowd, right. Nobody knows about this?" I asked looking at all of the boys. When I got to Harry he looked down and then turned away from me. "Harry" I said in a stern voice. He turned around and looked up, a smirk appearing on his face. I hit his arm, "what did you do?!?!" "I...um....might of...." "We don't have time for this! Spit it out curly!" "Hey! I can say the same thing about you!" I touched my hair knowing he was right. "But she works it better than you" Louis said. "Just say it Harry" Liam said putting his hand on his forehead. "I just said on twitter that I'm going to New York" "You idiot!!!!!!" Louis yelled at him. "I have no words for how STUPID that is of you....lets just go" "I'll help you with your bags" Liam said. I took my two and put them in the back of Liam's SUV. I got in the back row impatiently waiting for the boys to hurry up and get in the car. Louis got in next to me. Harry sat in the front next to Liam. "You have the tickets, right?" Liam asked us. "Yeah, I have them" Harry said feeling them in his pocket. Liam pulled out of the driveway and drove rather quickly. "Give them to me" "Why?" Harry asked looking back at me. "Girls are gonna try to reach into your pockets and take whatever you have. I have a purse and nobody's going to be attacking me" He moved his head agreeing with me. He handed them to me and I put them in my purse and zipped it closed. "I hope Mr. and Mrs. Derrils and Donny are ok." "I'm sure they're fine, they'll be ok. Don't worry babe" Louis put his arm around me and I laid my head on his shoulder. "Harry! Look at what you did" Liam said a few minutes later driving to the entrance of Heathrow. There were girls, a lot of girls. Most of them with signs but all of them screaming. Thank God Liam's windows were blacked out. He pulled over to the curb where there were barely any girls. "Ready to make a run for it?" Harry said. "Lets get our bags first then just run" I suggested. "Ok, ready. 1,2,3!" Louis opened the door quickly and took my hand. We all scrambled to get our bags. "I love you guys!!!!" "Harry give me some of your gravy!!" Fans were screaming the whole time and trying to get to us, thank God for airport security. We quickly said bye to Liam and ran inside. We headed straight for security and got through quickly. Then we made our way to the plane that Harry and Louis reserved for us. There was no way I was riding in a public plane with those two around. "Hurry up Marrissa!" Louis yelled dragging me behind him. "I'm running as fast as I can" We got to the boarding area, showed our ID and got on the jet. I caught my breath and plopped down in one of the seats. "How do you guys do that?" "You have to keep your head down and just go" Harry said. "But you have to look up and smile sometimes so the fans don't think we're ignoring them" Louis added. "That's gonna take some getting used to" I said fixing my beanie. "Please fasten your seatbelts, we are going to take off now" the captain made an announcement. I did so and Louis sat across from me. I fell asleep within 10 minutes of sitting there talking to Louis and Harry. ~~"I don't know" "Why do you always have to mess everything up?" Christine said. "I'm sorry, I didn't mean to!" "Of course you did! Everything's your fault" "C'mon Christy! We're friends, basically sisters!" "But just now you ruined everything for me, why don't you get it? You're a backstabbing bitch. I thought you were always there for me" "I was, and I still am" "No! You're lying to me, you fat ass! You're a screw up! Why, how, did I EVER become friends with you?" "Why are you doing this to me?" "Oh and thanks for inviting me to visit you in England." "Christy, I meant to! I'm sorry, I just...my mind was...I'm sorry for leaving you! But I never forgot about our friendship" "Don't call me Christy! We were best friends, did EVERYTHING together. Then when you gave me that note..." "What note? I didn't give you a note" "Jo Jo did. He said it was from you" "Well I never wrote you a note. What did it say?" "I still have it" She took it out of her pocket. It said 'dear Christy, I'm not your friend anymore. Now that I have other friends and a boyfriend in my life I don't need you. You're just another body always following me around. You were always that clingy friend that nobody likes. Go kill yourself you bitch and we were never friends, Marissa' "Oh my God Christina! I never wrote that! Look my name isn't even spelled right!" "Then who did, huh?!?!" "Maybe Jo Jo, but why would he? I don't even wan to think about him right now...Christina please believe me! Forgive me!! I still love you!! I thought you didn't want to hang out anymore because you never came near me! Christina please!!! Forgive me!!" "Even if you didn't write that, it's too late now Marrissa. You don't know how much that hurt me" "What do you mean it's too late?!?! We still have time to make up and be best friends again!" "I did exactly what you told me to do Marrissa" "What?" "Go kill yourself. And I did. After years of hurting myself I finally did it" "Christina!!!!" "Sorry. I'm gone."~~"Marrissa! Are you alright love?" Harry asked shaking me. "You've been having a lot of nightmares lately" Louis said. "I don't know. I'm just so stressed and confused. I don't know what's happening to me and my life, everything's catching up to me now." My phone buzzed with a text from Julia, "did you hear about Christina? It's all over the news here. Looks like we'll be going to two funerals this week :'(" I shook my head looking down at my phone, a tear escaped my eye. "What happened love?" Louis asked moving to the seat next to mine. I looked at him with my face now feeling warm and congested, my eyes flowing tears. "My other friend Christina, she committed suicide. Well she used to be my friend but I still care about her" "What happened?" Harry asked. I took a deep breath. "I don't know. I think I do but I'm not sure. It's weird because that's what I was dreaming about, why she committed." "What happened in your dream?" Louis asked wrapping his arm around me. I shook my head again and tucked my knees up to my chest and wrapped my arms around them. "She killed herself because of me. Supposedly I gave her a note saying that we were no longer friends and that I told her to go kill herself, I never gave anything to her. She said that my ,at the time, boyfriend JoJo gave it to her. I guess that's why she stopped hanging out with me, I never asked her what was up. I'm so stupid" There was a pause and I looked up at them. "So far I've cause two deaths, hopefully there won't be a third" I said quietly and put my head on my knees. "You didn't cause anything Marrissa. Sam was Harry's fault and Christina was Jo Jo's fault or whoever gave her the note's fault. None of it is yours. I don't want you to ever think of yourself in that way, EVER!" Louis said squeezing me. "Marrissa you can't blame yourself for something that you know you didn't do. You're lying to yourself. You're just bringing yourself down" Harry said. "I don't want to see you cry anymore or see you feeling depressed. I miss that genuinely happy smile that you always show me. I'll never forget the first time we met, you fainting was priceless. I just want to see you happy. Ok babe?" Louis said lifting up my head to face his. I nodded, "ok." "Good. Now let me see that smile." I didn't want to smile, but I knew that only meant more trouble for me. My face didn't change from its plain expression. "Oh you're gonna get it" Louis said. He lifted the corners of my mouth to get me to smile, that usually always works. This time it didn't. "C'mon. Oh alright." Louis started tickling me. "Stop it Louis!" I screeched. He continued tickling me. I got down onto the floor hoping to get away from him. He just got on top of me and tickled me even more. Then I started tickling him back. Louis knew right where my most ticklish spot was and that's where he tickled me next. "Louis! Ahh!" I laughed so hard that I snorted. I couldn't stop it. "Aw, you guys are so adorable" I heard Harry say but I couldn't see him. Louis was still on me and soon enough his lips found his way to mine. He stopped tickling me and just kissed me. I took off his beanie and started playing with his hair. "Get a room!" Harry yelled. Louis pulled away and smiled. I smiled too and he helped me off of the floor. I went back to my seat and checked my phone. A notification popped up from twitter. I opened the app and saw the new tweet. "@/Harry_Styles:

@/Louis_Tomlinson and @/MarrissaRiley are so adorable. But they really need to get a room." Attached to it was a picture of me and Louis on the floor tickling each other. I looked up at Harry and squinted my eyes. He smiled back and I dozed off into a calming sleep. No nightmares, no dreams. Just a calm sleep.