Syzygy(Reverse harem) -BTS Fanfiction-

you never let me in.

Eunkyung POV

"Let's not practice today, instead we'll celebrate the newcomer!" Jimin yelled. Everyone seemed to agree, well except Namjoon. I pointed to Namjoon and asked,"What do we do with him?" Everyone shrugged and looked around the room, Yoongi slowly moved up to Namjoon's sleeping form.

I looked at him curiously wondering what he was going to do, he slowly reached his hands up to his chest and picked his nipples, Namjoon shot up and whined,"Hyung! Why?"  I burst out laughing at the scene and fell onto my stomach.

Slowly everyone joined in on my laughs and we laughed until our stomachs hurt and tears pooled in our eyes,"Okay, let's all calm down here." Namjoon urged, I nodded wiping my tears away. 

Jimin stood up and walked away from the group, he pulled his phone out of his pocket and dialed someone,"He must be calling Bang-PD." Yoongi said as he snapped me out of my thoughts. 

A comfortable silence fell upon the group, we all just looked at each other a tiny smile gracing our lips, soon Jimin came back and said,"Bang-PD let us take the day off, but we need to be back on track by tomorrow, is that good?" 

Everyone nodded in agreement and just laid on the floor for awhile, Hoseok broke the silence and stood up,"We're on a quest to Eunkyu-Rosuto's house now, get up everyone." My thought's soured at the thought of going to that place,"Can we do this later?" I questioned.

"You're procrastinating because you fear rejection, so let's get that fear outta your head, so no we gotta do this today and now." Namjoon answered. I scoffed and asked,"You read philosophy?" He nodded and mumbled,"It's good for your head you know." 

I smiled and nodded,"Sure~" We got up and left the room, we decided to walk till my house, so I could have time to think. Unbeknownst to me we had reached my house pretty quick. I stood a few feet away from my house and turned around to face the boys.

I waved my hands dramatically and said,"Well, this is where I live." They all nodded, sympathy and pity lining their features."It's okay, you guys can express your distaste, it's not my *home anyways, at least not anymore." Jeongguk patted my shoulder and slowly ushered my towards my door.

I spoke one last time before entering,"Don't come in, unless you hear me yelling any one of your names." Before they could question me I walked inside and closed the door remembering not to lock the door.

"Eomma?" I called out as I walked in,"I'm near the T.V" She yelled, I gulped as I walked to the living room. "Eomma, I have something to ask you." She shook her hand motioning me to continue,"I-I-I" She tsked and said,"Stop fumbling over your words I didn't raise you like that!"She yelled.

"Sorry." I apologized."The thing is that I got scouted to be in a Hip-Hop band, I really wanna be part of it." She smiled and for a second, I had the audacity to think that she was going to agree, but life never goes according to plan, does it?

"My precious gem, did you not fucking understand that music is waste of time when I threw that stupid piano of yours away." She said calmly. My eyes widened in fear as she stepped closer to me,"But eomma, I really want to do this, I promise that I'll get the money you want! I'll even get married like you asked, but please let me do this!"

She scoffed as she took a step closer,"No, you are gonna stay with me and your brother, you are gonna make us money only then you will be part of the family, isn't that what you want be; Lee Eunkyung." 

For some reason when she called me by the last name 'Lee' I didn't feel satisfied, I didn't feel what I wanted to feel, I didn't get what I thought I'd get, it simply felt wrong. Then it hit me, I looked up at her and quietly said,"I don't think I want to be part of the family." 

Her eyes widened as she raised her hand and slapped me, my face collided with the wall beside me,"HOW DARE YOU SAY THAT! AFTER ALL I'VE DONE FOR YOU! AFTER ALL THE LOVE I GAVE YOU!" I flinched as tears filled my eyes,

"That wasn't love eomma, love feels different, love makes you feel like you belong, and I've never felt like that here." I corrected her.

She took hold of my hand and dragged me to her room, she threw me in front of the mirror and yelled,"LOOK AT YOURSELF! NO ONE COULD EVER LOVE YOU! BUT I DID, YET YOU WANT TO LEAVE ME AND YOUR BROTHER!" 

I looked at her through the mirror and whispered,"I didn't say I wanted to leave, but now I wish to leave this horrible place and never look back." She huffed and asked,"What did you say, you whore?" 

I wiped my tears away and replied a little louder this time,"I said, I wish to leave this horrible place and never look back!" She gasped as she shed a few tears,"How could you leave this family so easily?" 

I scoffed as I said,"Because you never let me in." She raised her hand to her mouth in mock shock. She wiped her tears and said,"That's it, I'm pulling you out of school, I'm gonna throw you out of my house."

I cut her off,"Eomma please, just think about it, you can fix everything if you want to." I pleaded.

She tilted her head and hummed,"You're right gem~" I took a step back from her again in fear of what she was gonna do. She quickly grabbed my hair and whispered in my ear,"Maybe MyungDae will explain it to you better." 

My eyes widened at what she was implying,"Eomma no, please no!" She began pulling me into a different room while saying,"This will teach you to respect your family." 

NO,

NO,

NO.

I sucked in a deep breath and yelled,"HOSEOK! HOSEOK PLEASE! SOMEONE HELP ME!" 

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*home= she said it wasnt her home anymore because home is something you refer to with emotion, like if you have emotional attachment with that place, you know what I mean.