I scoffed at his silence. The meaning of my own words caving in. Not realizing tears were spilling out of my eyes.
"Oh my god, they don't love me. They don't love me. I'm not even part of the family. She's not my mother, Myungdae is not my brother. Oh my god, I can't breathe." The realization made me feel breathless.
The walls around were closing in as Hoseok yelled at me again,"HEY! Eunkyung eyes on me! Don't focus on the darkness in the corners of your eyes! Look at me Eunkyung! Now listen to my every word. I'm going to walk to you, and then I going to hold your shoulders."
I nodded, he yelled again,"Eunkyung I want you to understand that I'm going to touch you! It's just gonna be me!"
I nodded frantically as he walked up to me and held my shoulders, the touch giving me comfort. He reached his hands up to my face as he wiped my tears. I pulled back and realized the position we were in.
I looked down ashamed of myself,
ashamed of my upbringing,
ashamed of my thought process,
ashamed of my very existence.
I walked backwards as I mumbled an apology. I picked up my bag and walked out of the kitchen bumping into Namjoon in the way, I bowed in apology as I ran out.
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(I dun know this just came to my mind-Author)
I ran to my school jumping the gate, used to it as I already had done that multiple times. I walked to my homeroom class and sat at the far back. Lowering my head on to the bench. I groaned as I realized I didn't change into my uniform.
I picked my bag up again, heading to the washroom to change. I pulled out my spare toothbrush and tiny tube of toothpaste. I brushed my teeth and washed my face. I slowly changed into the uniform.
I stalked back to the classroom and decided to take a little nap. I rested my head on the table when I remembered I had homework. I lifted my head and groaned in utter annoyance. I pulled my ugly ass math textbook out and opened page 394.
I groaned again at the book that laid unsolved in front me, it felt like the book was mocking me for fucks sake. I scoffed and pulled my pencil out.
"Polynomials", I read out loud. I had to finish 35 sums in 2 hours. I looked at my watch to make sure I was right. "6.25!"I yelled in confusion.
"It was like 5.25 at Hoseok's place?!"I thought to myself. I quickly started solving them knowing school started at 7.00 made me worry. I winced as I made multiple mistakes, just wanting too finish it.
"Done is better than perfect." I mumbled to myself. I felt and ugly cramp trailing up my fingers, as I held the pencil at and awkward angle. I shook my hand and continued writing. I gagged at my disgusting ass handwriting when I finished.
I picked my stuff up and walked to the front bench, not wanting to miss out on anything the teacher will be saying. I flinched when the bell rang, the loud sound giving me a head ache.
Loads of students rushed in smiling at me, patting my back, wishing me a good morning. You see no one really fucked with me alot, because you see, I do the homework, and they need the homework.
I smiled back at everyone who wished me a good morning and prepped for class. A few minutes later I felt a tap on my shoulder, I smiled and turned around.
And OH MY GOD! It's Jeongguk.
I had a crush on him for the longest. His smile; beautiful,
his voice beautiful,
his stupid emo hair, beautiful
his undeniably smooth voice; ethereal.
I pulled my biggest smile and slightly raised the pitch of my voice,"Yes?"
"Hi um, my name's Jeongguk, I know we've never talked before, but I was wondering if I could have your homework?" He questioned, rubbing his neck. The tip of his ears slightly turning pink.
Disappointment filled me but my smile didn't falter,"Yeah sure, but my handwriting really dirty." I stated.
His bunny smile appeared as he waved his hand"No, No, it doesn't matter, actually I always finish my homework but, I was busy last night."
I nodded and handed him my book, not wanting to question him further; sensing that he was an introvert.
"I thought he was gonna ask me out." I mumbled to myself.
"Why would he ask me ask me out? We never talked?!"I yelled in my mind.
I laid my head on the table wanting to take a cat nap before the teacher came in but alas, I have a shitty luck.
The teacher walked in yelling,"Good morning students!"
"Why does he have to yell in the morning?!" I groaned to myself.
"Now I hope all of you finished your homework, and I swear if I see anyone passing their books around, I will send you out of the class!" He yelled once again.
I looked at Jeongguk panicking. We both held eye contact for two seconds before giving up.
I raised my hand and spoke,"Sir, I forgot my book at home, but I promise I finished my homework."
He put his pointer finger on his lips and said,"No excuses Ms. Choi, kindly exit the class."
I nodded and picked my bag up.
"Wait!" I heard Jeongguk yell.
I turned around and motioned him to sit down, not wanting him to get into trouble.
"I have her book! Please don't send her out it's my fault, I didn't do my homework, so I took her's to finish mine." He yelled.
The teacher's eyes widened,"How dare you Mr. Jeon, I'd like you to leave class too! And both you meet me at my desk after lunch!"
I turned my attention back to Jeongguk, only to notice him squirming under everyone's stares. I felt guilty as I saw tears building up near his waterline. This must be very overwhelming for him.
He slowly picked up his bag and books as he left the room.
AN
SOOOOOO~ Author-nim is back! My exams are finally over. Nowww I just have to finish writing a chapter of blood rose and we'll be back on updating regularly.
