Infinity (BNHA X Reader)

Scene 4

Context: After Inko died, Izuku and you start to stay with Eraserhead because you two have nowhere else to go. 
TW: THIS CHAPTER CONTAINS SUICIDAL THOUGHTS AND A SUICIDE ATTEMPT. READ AT YOUR OWN RISK. 

~...~

 Why can't you do anything right? The voice hissed.

I don't know. You state, rubbing your eyes tiredly. I just want to sleep.

You destroy everything you touch. Why?

I don't know.

You'll hurt everyone around you.

I know.

It would be better if you weren't around. The voice rumbles lowly. You know that, right?

You sniff dangerously, and your eyes begin to betray you. I know.

Eraserhead hates you. He doesn't care.

That's a lie! Eraserhead-

He doesn't care.
They all hate you. All you bring is pain and suffering wherever you go, because of him.

Then it's his fault, not mine-.

It's all your fault.

Your breath catches. I don't mean to hurt them, I swear-

Oh, but you have. You have, and I know that. You can't hide from me.

Your eyes close for a moment as the tears fall. I know I have.

What are you going to do about it?

I don't know.

That's not good enough, idiot. He's coming for you. You know this.
He'll torture you again.

Shut up.

He'll kill you, this time.

I won't let him.

You can't stop him.

Just shut up and let me sleep!

You rolled over, groaning as you drift off.

"Y/N."

Your eyes instantly shoot open and you jump in fright.

"No, no, no, no-"

"I said you'd never escape me. But you tried to. You're no use to me anymore."

"I'm sorry!" You pleaded. "I-I'll come back, I swear!"

"It's too late. And they'll be next. It's all your fault Y/N. You should've listened to me."

"Father, please, no!"

"You're a murderer. You can't save anyone. You'd be better off dead, child. You can't escape me. You will die one way or another."

You sniff as his figure disappears, and only one word comes to mind. "Ok."

~...~

You jolt awake from your nightmare, gripping at the bedsheets.
Almost as if on autopilot, you stand from your bed, and walk out of the room given to you.

"Y/N?" Jupi calls.

You flinch violently. "O-oh, hey, Jupi. Shouldn't you be asleep?"

"I could say the same thing, darling."

"I was just going for a walk. Please, go to sleep Jupi. I just need some air."

Jupi hesitates before answering. "Alright, love. Be careful out there."

Jupi pads away.

Goodbye, Jupi. I'll miss you.

You continue on, biting back the tears.

~...~

Jupi jumps on to the bed, swatting her paw at Shouta. "Get up." She speaks.

No response.

"I require your assistance, Eraserhead."

Shouta groans, eyes fluttering open. "What? What is it?"

"Y/N is outside. She seems distressed."

Shouta jumps up, climbing out of his bed and grabbing his capture weapon. "Stay here."

~...~

You stare over the edge of the roof.
The slight drizzle of rain wets your pajama's, but you couldn't care less.

One step. You remind yourself, dangling one foot over the edge. One step, and I'll be free.
Only one step in the right direction.

A shaky smile finds a way to your face.

You take a small step forward, and your toes are no longer touching concrete.

~...~

"Y/N!" Shouta roars out in the night as he runs out the door. "Where are you!"

Please, not her. The mantra repeats in Shouta's mind. Please, not her.

All he can do is run.
All he can do is look for you.

Suddenly, there's a familiar scream, one that makes him stop.
You.

His breath hitches, as he runs down the street, following the sound of your voice.

~...~

You scream out in pain, shouting your frustrations. A shaky breath leaves your lips, and you close your eyes. I'm sorry.

The door bangs open just as you fell. "No!"

Then, something wraps around you, and you stop.

Your eyes flew open. "What-?" When you look down, you realize what it is. "Let me-" You gasp out. "Let me go!"

"I'm not doing that, Y/N. I'm not doing that." Eraserhead's voice nearly shakes.

"Eraserhead, please-"

He pulls you up, back to the safety of the roof.

His capture weapon loosens around you, and he exhales a sigh of relief. "God damn it, Y/N. You scared the hell out of me."

"Why'd you stop me?" You whispered, refusing to meet his eyes.

He doesn't answer for a few moments. "Kid, why wouldn't I?"

"I was trying to save you!" Your voice breaks. "Y-you sh-shouldn't have-"

And for the first time, he pulls you into a hug.

And the tears return.

"I-I'm s-sorry. I-I'm so fucking s-sorry, Eraser." You hide your face on his shoulder, sobs wracking your body.

The door opens once more, this time with a distressed Jupi sitting on the shoulder of an also much more distressed Izuku.

"What happened?" He pants out, eyes landing on your figure.

Shouta picks you up. "What are you doing here, Izuku?"

"Jupi woke me up. What happened?" He repeats desperately.

Shouta sighs. "I can't-"

He's interrupted by you repeating an apology over and over again. "I'm sorry, I'm sorry, Izuku, Eraser, I'm so so sorry-"

"Eraserhead, I deserve to know." Jupi hisses, jumping off of Izuku's shoulder and onto yours. "And so does Izuku-san over there."

You hug Jupi close, sniffling as the tears finally begin to recede.

"Before anything," Shouta starts. "We need to get her inside. It's starting to pour. She'll catch a cold this way."

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...Yeah uh. We love angst :)