Raised in a toxic and horrible household, a girl with a truly Brutal upbringing Eleanor L. Kang gets married off in an arranged marriage where she struggles with the change and adjustment of her handsome yet cruel businessman of a husband Kim Seokj...
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November 27 2019 It's been exactly 25 days without Jin, without speaking to him, hearing his voice, hugging him, kissing him, waking up next to him. I haven't even texted him. It was hard but I refrained myself. It was part of our deal but it wasn't easy. I think I do love him, I want to tell him when I'm sure. What do I love about him? Everything, I love how he smells, I love how when he runs his hands through his hair it gets all messy and fluffy, I love how big his eyes get when he's pouty or when he's eating, I love his laugh that I always tease him about resembling windshield wipers, I love how playful he is, I love that side of him. I don't love the monster side of him, I guess some would say I don't truly love him then. You can't love parts of someone and claim to love them as a whole right? I wanted to be a good wife for him and I was trying and he tried to be a good husband but then something would go wrong and it seemed as if we were back at square one and even worse than when we first came together. This ISNT the love story I want to tell our future kids. I go back in 5 days, let's see what happens.
-Seokjin-
I sat on the empty bed, I missed Elle so much and as much as I wanted to text her or call her just to hear her voice I didn't.
I wanted to respect her wishes, if I've learned anything from this month apart is that I truly took her for granted.
I love her, I missed everything about her. Her smile, her laugh, her kisses, her caring nature.
What was wrong with me?! Perhaps Yunho Hyung was right, maybe I was the one who needed therapy.
Eleanor would be home soon and I didn't even know how I should welcome her back.
Everything was so tense between us and I didn't want to make things worse somehow.
"Hyung your birthday is coming up! What do you want?" Hoseok strolled in.
"Eleanor." I whispered. "I just want her here."
The boys frowned at each other. "Elle will be back-
"What if she won't? What if she decides she doesn't want to come back? What does she have to look forward to when coming back to me?" I sighed.
The boys stayed silent.
"Well...she has...she has...."
"Truth is we can't think of what she has to look forward to but she will come back. Elle never breaks her promises." Jungkook finished for Taehyung.
I laid back.
"And I always do." I whispered.
"Instead of complaining maybe be better. Without a doubt she'll give you another chance, and another after that, and another, and so on until she's finally drained out from everything you'll put her through. Be better. Apologies without change is manipulation which is abuse." Jungkook said and walked away.
