Mending of the Heart

Marriage license

"This conversation isn't easy nor does it have to do with mark but...we can't be together jin. The more I think about it the more it doesn't make sense. I can't let myself be with you again. I can't ever trust you the way I did the first time it won't work." I explained.

"I love you you're the father of my kids but I realize that's the only reason I'm really with you, for the kids."

"You still love him." Jin stated. "Don't you?"

I rubbed my face. "I do. It's always been him."

I searched Jin's face for an answer his eyes held all of them. He was devastated and I could understand why.

"The more I think about our past the more it hurts me. The more it makes me realize that this isn't good for anyone of us. Not me not you and if it isn't good for us then it won't be good for the kids."

"I guess you have a point...it was nice while it lasted."

"I'm sorry jin-

"Don't apologize. I understand. It's never gonna be the same no matter how hard we try." He shrugged.

He was right. It wasn't gonna be the same. Ever.

"I love you jin a part of me always will but I can't love you the way I once used to. I'm a different person now I'm not the girl I was when I was married to you and...I just need something different. I can't live my life with you with a part of me resenting you for our past I can't live my life on edge thinking that although you say you've changed something could happen where you go back to your old ways. You betrayed me in ways I've never been betrayed before and hurt me in ways that I can't overlook. With your secretary, with your words, with your actions...it's too much." I sniffed wiping my tears.

"What do we tell the kids?"

"They're too young to understand this is all gonna be confusing for them but I think we should just tell them in a way they'll understand." I stated.

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"What do you mean mama?" Minseok asked. "Appa no live with us anymore?"

"I have my own place bud, I'll still see you and Yuna everyday but mama and appa can't live together."

"You hate each other?" Yuna asked.

"No baby it's not that. Daddy and I just need to separate. Sometimes in a relationship it doesn't work out so you have to let go of each other. You can still love each other just from a distance."

"Im still your appa." Jin promised. "And mama is still your mama and we're still a family that won't change."

"Okay...this makes you happy?" Minseok asked.

I nodded. "This is good for mama and appa." I promised.

I hope they would grow up and understand that their mother had to put herself first.

"You will understand when you're older." Jin explained. They nodded.

"Go play." I said.

The two ran off to play with their toys. Jin and I sat on the couch and sighed.

"They'll understand when they're older." Jin said. I nodded.

"I hope they don't blame me when their older-

"I'll tell them the truth." I shook my head at Jin.

"No, you're their father. Children should think good of their father." I said. "We can just tell them that it didn't work out."

"Well now you and Mark can live happily ever after." Jin chuckled sadly.

I looked at my hands. "It's good. You shouldn't be in a relationship when your heart belongs to someone else."