Mending of the Heart

Lost it all

-Seokjin-

Eleanor hadn't returned home last night.

Mark said he dropped her off at home but when I got there she wasn't there. Her things were gone.

I had called her many times but she just didn't want to answer and I grew weary.

I really regretted my actions, I regretted everything and I couldn't even focus on work.

There was a knock on my door and Jungkook walked in. "Hey wh-

"Here, you're being served." He got straight to the point staring at me with blank eyes he plopped the divorce papers on my desk.

"What? She can't be serious." I said.

"She is, she already signed everything. Sign your part too Hyung she's not coming back." He said looking away.

"What? What do you mean Eleanor isn't coming back? Of course she is she always-

"Well not this time." Jungkook sneered slamming his hands on my desk. "You pushed her to the edge. She finally had enough, just sign the papers she wants to get rid of you as soon as she possibly can. You owe her that much-

"She's my wife Jungkook!-

"Funny how you only show how care when it comes to this. Now it finally has Hyung so sign the papers. You know she has a strong case against you if you don't cooperate." He threatened.

I glared at him. "You threatening me?"

"Take it how you want. She could press charges, abuse of all kinds all the way from verbal to physical, neglect, trauma, she could end your career just by taking you to court then how many people do you think would still be loyal to you and your company? Sign the papers, get it over with she's done."

The tip of the pen hovered over the line for my signature. "I want to speak to her first-

"She already said no, she said she'll get a restraining order if you even try to complicate this."

"Dammit Eleanor." I said and signed the papers.

"Congrats, you're officially a divorced single man." He said and walked away.

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I bathed into Yunhos place. "Where is she?" I stormed over to Mark grabbing his collar.

"We don't know! I dropped her off at your place last night." He pushed me off him.

"I don't believe you, she wasn't there when I got there." I shook my head, he fixed his hoodie and glared at me.

"So? She probably left somewhere and even if I did know where she was I would never tell you." He spat, I lunged towards him only to be held back.

"She's my wife!" I yelled with rage, the others stared at me.

"Ex wife, the second you signed those papers Jungkook took them to the lawyer and you no longer were married anymore. You two are officially divorced now...no more marriage." Miran explained slowly.

"She made her decision Seokjin, after months of contemplating this decision she finally made it so imagine how over it she must've been to actually go through with it." Sarang sighed, "let her go."

"Yeah, you didn't make much effort to keep her around and now she's gone, she's finally going to move on and she just needs that space to do that, to heal." Yunho stated.

"Move on? To what? Him?" I spat as I glared at Mark.

"And so what if she does move on to me? I never treated her how you did, even if she does come to me you don't have a say, you're not married anymore." Mark pointed out with annoyance.

He has a point, Eleanor and I didn't have any bind together anymore. We were divorced, although what she does now doesn't effect me it still hurts.

"She's taking time to heal, she says she'll let us know when she's ready to see people again but Jin, you have to respect that she never wants to see you again." Sarang reminded.

This was bullshit.

"You owe her that much. You need to realize that her leaving is no ones fault but your own. She tried to make it work with you, we pushed her to file for divorce but she wanted to give it everything she had before she took that step." Jungkook added.

-Eleanor-

I was looking for some places in Busan, I had gotten a few job offers over there and now I had no reason to not take them.

Nothing was holding me back anymore. I could move to Busan and start a fresh new life with my baby and myself.

Of course I would still be in contact with my friends, I couldn't leave them behind entirely.

I owed them so much, if it weren't for them I don't think I'd ever have the courage or the will to leave Jin.

Jin, a name I no longer wanted to hear from this day on. I wanted to erase every memory of him that I had in my mind.

Even the good ones. My child deserved to grow up in a household where they'd be loved and wouldn't have to be around constant bickering and arguing.

I didn't want that to damage them. This was the best solution for both my child and I.

No one knew I was pregnant. How am I supposed to even bring it up? Jin and I only got divorced so easily because we have no kids, at least that's what he thinks.

If he knew about my pregnancy I'd be forced to have to see him from time to time and I just didn't want to go through that at all.

The only connection hed have to me is through my baby and I didn't want that possibility. So it was best if he thought my child didn't exist.

I'd be moving soon, fresh start in Busan. A new me, a stronger, happier and more independent version of me.

If not for myself then for my baby.

-Seokjin-

When I got home I had a journal waiting on my nightstand for me titled,
Seokjinnie.

I sat down and opened it. And as I read I wept realizing,

Seokjin...I love him, he's really a changed man now. I love how he looks when he eats, his eyes get all big and shiny it's so cute, I love his smile and his laugh, I love how he closes the lights behind me whenever I forget to and doesn't get mad at me for it. I love him so much, I'm writing this because I already figured that eventually this day would come. That we would part ways so I wanted to leave you something to see how I remembered you. Don't worry, it's not all bad. There's some really cute stories in here about how I felt about you. Until we ever meet again, thank you for everything.
Xoxo- Eleanor

I lost her.

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AN: okay this will be the last chapter until the epilogue.