It's been a day after that night. The night when Atsumu said he's getting married.
Sakusa can't get it out from his head. Atsumu has no romantic relationships with him anymore but it still hurts. It hurts because he still likes him.
'why didn't I notice this before? all those years.. he..' Sakusa burries his face on his pillow, refusing to go practice. He doesn't feel like going out anymore. Wherever he goes, he sees Atsumu's face. he hears his voice, it hurts so fucking much.
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that night
"what do you mean Atsu?" Sakusa held his tears back after hearing what the blonde said
"I'm getting married?" he sighed, "Omi. I don't want to apologize just because of it. And.. don't think I'm doing this because of my parents. It's my choice,"
Sakusa can only stared at him, he's at lost of words, "you're kidding.. right? TELL ME YOU'RE JOKING!" he raises his voice at him. It's the first time Atsumu saw this side of him, it's breaking his heart into pieces
"I'm not.. joking." Atsumu looked away, not wanting to see him at this state, "Omi. I love you okay?"
"if you love me then why would you do that?!" Sakusa shouts at him again, tears rolling down to his face. He can't hold it back anymore, he wanted Atsumu to know what he truly feels. fuck his tsumuphobic,
"I STILL FUCKING LOVE YOU. MIYA ATSUMU,"
Atsumu widened his eyes, taking a few steps back. Turns out his twin was right, Sakusa never changed his feeling towards him.
Atsumu can push him away, he can run away and never return, he can ignore him for as long as he wanted, but Sakusa would still love him.
He turned his gaze to the black haired male, oh how he wished he can give him a hug, "Omi. I will only apologize for this. I can't return your feelings anymore.."
"we're not meant to be.. together," he added.
"the party is in two weeks, please. come.." Atsumu smiled at him before he walked away, leaving Sakusa crying all alone.
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'two weeks..' Sakusa bites down his lip. He's actually curious about Atsumu's soon to be wife or husband. But he knows, coming to the party means hurting himself.
"Atsu.." he mumbled, "I still love you.. no matter what happens,"
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Osamu has been watching his twin since yesterday, he's unusually quiet, 'did he tell Sakusa about it..?'
Atsumu lays on the couch, doing nothing or rather he doesn't feel like doing anything at the moment. The sight of Sakusa crying still haunts him and he can't forgive himself for that.
"you told him right?" Osamu approaches him with a bucket of popcorn to cheer him up,
"told.. what?"
"about your marriage,"
"oh.. yea,"
The blonde suddenly tears up, "Samu.. I lied to him. I said that I wanted this marriage,"
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tsumuphobic | sakuatsu.
Fanfiction[COMPLETED] "you are what?" "tsumuphobic" "what is that supposed to mean?" "I'm.. afraid of Miya Atsumu" In which Sakusa Kiyoomi fell in love with Atsumu on the all Japan youth camp, but in the same time he's afraid of him. ⚠︎ suicide all characters...
