tsumuphobic | sakuatsu.

epilog.

years later.

"Papa!"

Atsumu turns his head to the small child who approached him just now, "hi there little Miya~" he lifts him up, giggling

"Papa look! I draw you, uncle Samu, and uncle Suna!"

Atsumu takes the paper from his son's hand and stares at it, "oh? yer missing one more person darling,"

The little boy pouts at his dad, wondering who he missed, "mama?"

"no."

"uhm.. who is it papa, tell me tell me!"

Atsumu smiles at him and grabs the nearest pen, "well.. ya' won't know who he is, but his name is Sakusa Kiyoomi, I used to call him Omi though," he gives the pen to the little boy, wanting him to draw Sakusa too

The boy giggles at the name, "uncle Omi! okay! what is he like?"

The blonde puts his son down on the floor, sitting next to him while remembering what Sakusa was like, "he has.. curly hair, small lips that loves to pout just like ya'~"

His little son giggles again as he draws based on what his dad described, "what about his eyes?"

Atsumu looks down, smiling a bit, "they're beautiful.. it's like the whole galaxy fits inside them," his smile gets wider as he keeps telling his son about Sakusa

"wow... papa never talk like that about mama. I wonder what mama looks like,"

Atsumu frowns since that girl left the family after she gave birth to their son and now she's nowhere to be found, "it doesn't matter. She's evil.. so let's not talk about her,"

his son nods as he keeps drawing, "and done!"

The blonde looks at the picture again and smiles, "ah I forgot to tell ya'~ he has two pretty moles above his right eyebrow, that's one of many things that makes him special,"

His son nods again and adds it. He wonders how much his dad loves this Sakusa guy, it seems that he loves him more than his own wife, "papa..?"

"yes?"

"you love uncle Omi so much right?"

"of course honey.. he means the world to me,"

"then... where is he now? why isn't he with us?"

Atsumu widens his eyes at the question. No one has ever asked him that question in 5 years and now he got it from his own son. He tears up a bit, trying not to remember any of those memories, but he has no other choice than to tell him, right?

"he's.. dead,"

Little Miya looks up at his dad who's gonna cry, "papa.. don't cry.." he tears up too, seeing Atsumu sad breaks his heart, knowing his dad has been through a lot these years, "if papa cry I will cry.."

The blonde immediately picks him up and hugs him tightly, "oh no.. don't cry little miya~ I just miss him a lot,"

"I'm sure uncle Omi misses you too! even if he's somewhere above the clouds!"

Atsumu lets out some tears, still hugging his little son in his arms, "I.. really miss him.." He sniffs and looks away, not wanting his son to look at him at this state,

"papa.. it's going to be okay.." little Miya caresses his cheek slowly, "Uncle Samu once told me that when someone is dead we should be happy because they are free from their misery!"

"wow.. such big words coming from someone small like you," Atsumu chuckles, "but you're right.. he's in a better place now, so we should be happy for him hm?"

His son nods and giggles, "yes papa! so don't cry okie? let's get ice cream! to make you feel better,"

"yea let's get ice cream.."

Atsumu stands up, still holding his son in his arms. He opens the door and stares at the room that once belongs to Sakusa,

he died here, but Atsumu decided to move into this apartment along with his son,

'Omi.. I can still hear your voice in this room sometimes. It still smells like you, it's still full of your things and I believe.. you're still here with me'

Atsumu smiles warmly and turns off the light,

"I love you Omi, wherever you are."

— fin.