Dark Promises (A Draco Malfoy Fanfic)

Chapter 33

To my dearest Draco,

There are a few things I wished to tell you before I go, but it was hard looking into your eyes and saying 'Goodbye'. Who knows, if I do, perhaps I would never leave and the world would have gone into ashes.

So, if you're reading this, I'm probably dead by now and my plan has worked. I'm so sorry that I didn't make it through the war with you. I tried my hardest, but every f*cking time, I found myself back in the same position, contemplating which side I was really on and whether I wanted to be the hero of my story.

I wanted that happily ever after. And not just the ending where the villain is defeated and all is well with the world. No. I wanted to be with you.

Those days when your gaze fell upon my eyes or your hand holding mine, there was this amazing sensation like a warm embrace from the world itself, like nothing ever mattered, that it was only the two of us.

Your comforting words. Your promises of forever. Your sweet lies. I treasured each and every one of our memories, from the first day we met to dancing under the moonlight, listening to your mothers' song. My intention was to smother it all in my brain and pray that maybe, just maybe that when I'm on the other side, I can trace back to my memories, reliving the same surge of mystifying emotions.

And even though you're with Astoria now, I thought that with time, I would get used to your absence from my life or at least used to the fact that we were never meant to be. Yet everyday was harder than the previous and my heart still aches from thinking about all the good times we've spent together.

You know, I think the moment I fell in love with you was that one day at the Black Lake when you told me your deepest secret; you trusted me enough to share something so special and meaningful, I just knew. You probably don't remember any of this and you may even deny it, nevertheless, it happened. Since then, through all of our bad and good, I still love you.

I am in love with every little aspect about you: the way your blonde hair grazes your skin, the way you nibbled my neck, the times we've teased each other, and especially how you understood me.

I can't express how much I want to be there with you right now. As long as you're safe, then I couldn't be any happier.

Its funny how, I can recall how every f*cking morning that I went to the Black Lake, staring at the beautiful water and thinking about what it would feel like if I just drowned, to just die right there. I mean wouldn't it all be easier if I were gone. Harry wouldn't have trouble finding all the horcruxes and I wouldn't have taken a chance to fall in love to then have it broken multiple times. And no matter how much I wanted to end it all, I never did, because you, you were on that other side of the lake.

Don't you see, you were the reason I stayed a bit longer, the reason why I waited for another day. But, all good things have to come to an end. I'm so sorry, sorry that I'm leaving. It's my only choice.

Please don't blame yourself and please keep living for both of us, for we are the ones with magic, wonder, and the spark in our eyes.

As children, we were taught to be evil snakes, killing anyone in our paths with no remorse. I tried doing so and you did too, yet it never worked. It didn't take long for us to realize that the light that lives within us is stronger than the dark. Please, never lose that. Never grow up to be like your parents or mine. We were forced into this life, a life of murderers and monsters but we can change our fates.

As I die, I am giving you a choice. Choose wisely.

I really hope that Astoria is the right girl for you, who will cherish and protect you for years to come. I am terribly sorry that I cannot be that person for you.

I love you Draco Malfoy. Never forget that.

Yours, forever,

Angitia Riddle.