Psychosis

Back to Amaya

"Its all over now Amaya, you don't need to be upset."

"I understand your pain...I'm sorry you felt it..."

I felt so bad...

His family had problems too...but he's always smiling when I see him...

He's strong...he smiles through pain...

We then heard rustling of dead leaves.

Footsteps...

I looked over at Yuki frightened.

Yuki looked back at me, and looked me in my eyes.

"Never forget me Amaya..."

I was confused for what he meant by that.

"Y-Yuki...wha- what do you mean?!"

He had gotten closer to me, lifted my chin up a little with his finger.

He was looking me in my eyes.

"Amaya, I love you...tell me, quickly, do you feel the same?"

I had tears coming down my face, and I nodded gently.

"I'm not scared with you...you make the blurry people go away..."

He leaned in and pressed his lips gently against mine.

I was caught off guard.

I did as he did, following the patterns of his kiss.

Don't...go...stay...Yuki...

He was very passionate, he held me tightly as he kissed me.

I put my arms around his neck loosely.

He pulled back gently, resting his forehead on mine.

We were both breathing a bit heavy.

"Amaya...I'll see you again."

I started shaking in fear.

"Y-Yuki!!! No!!! Don't leave me!! Please!!!"

He let a single tear fall from the corner of his eye.

"I'm sorry Amaya..."

He stood and bent down to kiss me once more.

I kissed him back.

He started walking towards the footsteps.

"Yuki...I love you too..."

I had assumed he heard me.

He turned to look at me.

"Thank you Amaya."

He smiled, and then began picking up his pace towards the footsteps.

No...don't go...

After a while, I had seen a bright light from a distance with the sound of thunder...but it was not raining...

It was a gun...

From the direction Yuki had went.

I suddenly felt empty inside all over again.

Destroyed.

Cold.

Hurt.

Alone...

I heard footsteps coming towards my direction.

I didn't care.

I stayed where I was.

I couldn't move...

Frozen...

Then I saw these people, pointing their flashlights at me.

I stayed still.

"There you are...Amaya..."

I didn't acknowledge him.

I felt someone behind me.

I felt a lot of pressure on my neck, then everything went black.

First Seikatsu...now Yuki...why? Why must I be forced into loneliness? Why is this life so cruel? Why...