Psychosis

Through the Eyes of the Broken Hearted

I saw her hit the ground. 

Almost a lifeless fall. 

"SEIKATSU!" 

No...NO! I promised to protect her! 

I sprint to her, and get on my knees. 

"Seikatsu...no..." 

I stroke her golden hair. 

The sun barely shined. 

I felt a cold bitter rage inside me. 

Seikatsu...who did this? 

I tightened my fists, and I look for the person. 

Who...did this? 

I then spot a guy with a big gun. 

He looked scared, he hurriedy tried to reload his gun.

I sprint up to where he is. 

I didn't want to sing, this rage was different. 

You...you TOOK AWAY THE ONLY THING THAT LOVED ME! 

I went behind him. 

He didn't notice my presence. 

I cut his neck. 

Slowly...deeply... 

Letting the blood run down...pouring... 

His choking breaths struggled for air. 

He turned to face me, pulled the trigger on his gun. 

He missed...the bullet had only barely touched my arm. 

Still I felt a bit of pain, but it turned numb...along with me on the inside. 

As he struggled for air, I kick him in his back. 

He fell down from the high part of the forest, hitting the ground below him. 

"You wanna take something I love huh? YOU THINK IT'S FUN HUH?! YOU LIKE TO MAKE ME SUFFER HUH?!? I'LL SHOW YOU THE AGONIZING SUFFERING YOU ALL HAVE PUT ME THROUGH!" 

I quickly went up to him. 

I felt an adrenaline rush...I moved faster than I thought I would. 

I grabbed him by his collar of his shirt, cut his face with my knife. 

I stabbed his heart area, I release my grip from him, still with the knife in his chest. 

I take the handle of the knife, and I turn it. 

He tried to scream, but nothing came out. 

Heh...just like water...if you can't swim, the water will kill you silently...without a sound. 

He finally stopped moving. 

Blood was everywhere. 

My hands, face, clothes...all stained with each of my victories. 

Once I escaped my raged mind, I thought of Seikatsu. 

I widened my eyes and turned to her direction. 

I ran as fast as I could to her. 

Only she ran through my mind. 

I found her and got back on my knees and faced towards her. 

She cracked her eyes open. 

"A-Amaya..." 

I nodded once, tears were in my eyes. 

"Seikatsu...I'm sorry...this should've never happened...I promised to protect you..." 

She smiled. 

"Amaya...don't cry...don't...feel bad...neither you or I saw it coming..." 

I let a single tear fall, I look at her...her heavy breathing... 

"Hey...Amaya...tell me...did you ever really love someone?" 

I was a bit confused. 

"Like...almost the way you feel for me...except...more..." 

I realized what she was talking about, and decided to try and make her feel better...just a bit. 

"Yeah..." 

She giggled. 

"What was his name?" 

I smirk at her interest. 

"Shang..." 

"Where is he?" 

I look at the ground. 

"I...killed him." 

She widened her eyes. 

"What? Why?" 

She winced at her pain. 

"I don't know...I regret it though..." 

She giggled lightly. 

The sun started fading. 

"Amaya..." 

I look at her. 

"Mmhmm?" 

"Don't cry for me because I'm leaving...smile because you know I'm going to meet you again...without any need for pain, tears, or anything."

I smiled for her, after remembering my promise. 

She smiled. 

"Amaya...your smile...it's beautiful...you know...you didn't do this...it was them that did this to you...don't feel guilty...you're forgiven..." 

I saw the light leaving her eyes. 

"I-I'll...always love you Amaya..." 

She closed her eyes, the sun disappeared. 

Her last word...my name...Seikatsu... 

I touch her face lightly. 

"S-Seikatsu...Seikatsu! Open your eyes! No! Seikatsu NO!" 

I watched her exhale her last breath. 

"I...love you too Seikatsu..." 

I saw a gentle smile form on her after I said that. 

I let the tears roll down my face. 

"No...Seikatsu..." 

You didn't mean to...it was them that made you do this...don't feel guilty... 

I lied down beside her, stroked the hair out of her face. 

Seikatsu...when I leave...I may not go where you go...I've commited murders...you...you were innocent...that may have been the last time we met...Seikatsu...