Psychosis

Amaya's Choice

My heart felt heavy...

The loneliness...

The hate...

The cold...

The numbness...

Without Seikatsu, I'm nothing...

I was too attached...I loved her too much...

Broken...

This is the way you will always feel...

NO!! SHUT UP!!!

I started shaking...

Seikatsu...maybe I could join you...

I look at my knife that lay on dead leaves, lightly tinted with my blood.

I look over at Seikatsu's lifeless corpse.

I felt numb.

She was so young...I was supposed to die before she did...

I hum the song again, tears streaming down my face.

I don't care anymore...I don't care what happens to me...I don't care if I live or die...

I open my eyes and see that her smile before she left me here was still on her lifeless face.

It's almost as if...she's not dead at all...

I examine her...her skin, her hair, her smile...

I lay on the ground beside her...I could tell she was starting to decay a little.

I look around, I see a large rock and a huge lake.

You...won't go in the ground...you'll go somewhere I like...

I pick up her corpse, and I carry her towards the rock.

I take the ribbon that ran across her dress and tied it around her ankle along with the rock.

I take her to the deepest part of the lake.

"G-goodbye...Seikatsu...thank you for showing me what happiness is...you gave me life inside...I love you Seikatsu..."

I kissed her forehead softly before I let her corpse sink to the bottom of the lake.

I watched her go...her curls dancing in the water, her dress still flowed in water....she looked like an angel.

I turn and go back to where she had took her final breath.

I find my knife and I pick it up.

I see my reflection in the blade.

Seikatsu...may I join you?