Love Always Forgives

Zayne's Pov

Zayne Pov
Hi, its me. Its been a while. And, after so many years, I was slowly getting myself together.

And I still remember the day Azariah talked to me for the last time. I still remember how I don't want her to let me go, I know she's pushing me away and I don't know why. I don't want her to push me away, I love her. But...as I put myself back to that day, I always longed for her, so many what if's comes to my mind. But all I can do right now is to forget that..I have to.

At the highschool graduation, as I knew that Azariah left. I blamed myself for it. I am the reason why she left, and I was mad at myself. Cause from the start, I was at fault. I lied to her and I didn't have the courage to tell her the truth about my engagement. I was selfish and I know I was wrong, I can admit it now. And I regretted what I have done. I hurt her again, because of my selfishness.

But...when she let go of me...I know to myself that I don't want to be away from her. That's why...I get the courage to fight for her, for us. I don't care what will happen to me if I talked to my Grandpa to call off the engagement, remove me from his family I don't care, as long as I'm with Azariah. On our graduation, I was prepared to talk to Azariah and told her that I will fight for her and I don't want her to leave me.....but then, my world fell apart when I knew that she left without us knowing. I was stuck.

I was a mess for months after she left, I lost my direction in life. I did not left my room and isolates myself. Until the day I realized that, she's right. We were not meant for each other, I can't even fight for her, I can't fight for our love. But, despite of trying to brainwash myself on thinking that it's better if Azariah and I will be away from each other, still there are so many what ifs in my mind. What if I fight for her? What if she's the one that I chose?

I had a thought that maybe she knew about my engagement. Cause her words sounds deep, and it was too late when I realized that. She knew about me and Savannah, and that someone she was talking, it was Savannah. She wants me to focus all my attention and love with the girl my Grandpa wanted me to marry.

I start to change, cause maybe the reason Azariah left was for me to be better, a better man for my fiancee. So, I tried and tried to focus on Savannah. I changed my way to treat her, I become more soft towards her.
Cause that's what Azariah wants me to do.

Maybe me and Savannah will be more closer and maybe..I can fall in love with her. But I know to myself that I will always love Azariah, she will always have a space in my heart.

And about the engagement, my family didn't know about it. Only me and my Grandpa. They just knew right after the graduation.

As my family and I were at the house after graduation, we heard a knock on the door, my mother opened it..It was Grandpa..and beside her was Savannah. I was shock, I immediately stand up.

"Good evening. We're here to congratulate my Grandson, and of course, his fiancee is here to congratulate him" Grandpa said. My family was confused

"Fiancee?" My sister said looking at me confused.

"I haven't told about it but..Zayne and Savannah are engaged for the past 2 years. I made the decision and none of you will change that cause I won't let you" Grandpa said. Mom let them sit on the couch and she talk to them as my sister drag me to the kitchen..

"Bakit di mo sinabi na may fiancee ka na? Pano si Louise?" She whispered, and I know she's mad

"She..she left. We already talk and she let me go, she said she's not the right girl for me.. And...I didn't tell her about this" I said looking down

"I thought you won't ever hurt Louise again..but look..I guess I'm wrong. You hurt her again, and you didn't even tell her the truth and you still pursued her..what is wrong with you Zayne?" She said and went upstairs.. I know, they're mad at me...and it was my fault..I know.

I was hurt by that, and my sister won't talk to me ever since. And I know, my mom just talks to me whenever I approach her. I understand why they're mad at me, and I can't blame them.

..

After 4 years, when I was still in College. I saw myself slowly falling in love with Savannah. I mean, she always visit me at my apartment, yeah cause my Grandpa wanted that. So, she always visits me and spend her time all day at my apartment, she tried everything to make me talk to her or just be comfortable with her. And every single day that passed, I was slowly admitting that I am starting to fall with her.

Our relationship got well, and my family just supported me and just wants me to treat her special, I know they still have some hatred for me for what I did to Azariah, but I'm grateful that they still chose to support me and Savannah, especially that we will be getting married next year. My Grandpa was the one who settled everything, and the wedding date was decided by Savannah, cause I still want to give her a wedding that she dreamt.

And I know that Azariah still didn't come back. And I was waiting for her too, I want to apologize for everything, cause she doesn't deserve that. And I hope she will be happy when she know about me and Savannah. I was hoping that she's now happy with her life.

Till we meet again, Azariah.

And I know, she already forgave me, cause that's what she is.

I know, she really loved me, and so did I, but there's things that has been wrong

The only thing we can do is....

To forgive...

Like they say..

Love Always Forgives

But everything has limits..

Do not take it for granted..