Can't get you off my mind [Zarry]-English Translation

#We'reNotFriends

PART 1

Zayn's PoV

After that fight i locked my self in my room with the puppy.

It did nothing but lick me sometimes and let me caress it while sleeping.

I should have gave him a name.

Liam told me he was going to sleep in one of the guest rooms.
I correct myself: he told Louis who then told me.

I haven't spoke with Harry since that evening, he told me he would sleep in his room too.

I felt lonely, and i think that if the puppy wasn't with me it would have been even worse.

Is this how i would have felt if i 'd lost Liam, and most of all, Harry?

I put my hands on my face and turned on a side, stretching my arm to take the phone on the nightstand.
I checked the time: 10.30 pm

I hadn't eaten all day but i had my stomach closed anyways.

I'd decided to get up and go downstairs to drink some water.

When i arrived there i saw Louis sat in front of the table with a steaming cup in a hand and a lighten cigarette in the other.

He looked thoughtful, in fact when i entered the kitchen he jumped.

"Zayn you scared me" he sighed and pointed at the cup "there's still water in the boiler if you want some"

I nodded and filled myself a cup "Can i steal you a cigarette?"

He laughed "It's better if you smoke this and nothing else"

"Ah-ah" I sarcastically laughed and sat in front of him while blowing a little on the cup before taking a sip of tea.

Louis gave me a cigarette and i thanked him smiling and placing it between my lips.

"Here" he whishpered while approaching the lighter flame to my cigarette.

Our eyes crossed and i saw how his were full of anger mixed with sadness.
I felt my stomach writhing and took a longer hit to let the cigarette lighten completely to then divert my look from his.

The silence fell and the tension in the air could be cut with a knife.

We both loved the same person and we were sat one in front of the other, sipping tea like it was nothing.

"I know"

Louis broke the silence and i instantly raised my glance on him.

"What?" I hoped i misunderstood what he was referring to

"About you and Harry i mean" he looked at me while aspiring.

I opened my mouth but hadn't had the time to respond since he kept talking.

"Harry didn't tell me anything but i've been suspecting for a while. And i don't mean only the last months"
He took a sip of tea and stopped for a moment.

I wanted to disappear.

In that moment i wished to be anywhere but there, with him, talking about this.

"Louis, i-"

"No, let me finish Zayn" he abruptly interrupted me.
"I'm not going to hear your excuses or anything because i'm already keeping myself from punching you in the face. Let me talk and when i'm done you can tell me whatever you want"

He licked his lip and started nervously moving his leg.

I nodded and stayed quite.

"I always knew one day you would fall in love. I've been living with Harry for a year, i know ever single aspect of his, or at least that's what i thought, but i've never succeeded on making him make a smile that could show even a minimum of the love it shows when you're the cause. His eyes are completely different when directed on you. They change, they become sweeter, almost like he's scared of loosing you even just for a glance. Since we've moved here he only talks about you, he doesn't even remember of himself or of the fact that he's supposed to move in with me in a few days. You're the centre of his world, and not because he's obsessed with you, you're the centre of his world because he'd be willing to suffer if it would mean your happiness.
I think that if you would ever ask him of leaving you alone he would be devastated, but he would accept it to let you be happy.
I've never thought about yours like a simple friends love, but now i'm not even sure that it's just simple love. You complete eachother because you're exact opposites, day and night, the sun and the moon, black and white, but you still succeed on making every aspect of eachother value when you're together, without making the other fit in or make compromises.
Instead, me and Harry are perfect for eachother's character and we love eachother, but we always make compromises that never satisfy either of us at the end of the day"

He was right.

Me and Harry were more than friends and we were more than in love.

Any other kind of relationship couldn't be compared to ours and we didn't even know if there existed a term that could describe that strong feeling there was between us

Louis' eyes were bright and he was constantly moving the strands of hair from his face.

When he was done i looked down and noticed that my pants were full of little drops of water.
I instinctively dried my eyes with the back of my hand and realized i was crying. My face was striped with tears that didn't look like stopping soon.

"I don't know if Liam has understood and doesn't want to accept it, or if he simply acts like he hasn't noticed, but it's impossible to say that you two are just friends"

Louis kept talking, and this time we both looked at eachother in the eyes.

"I don't know what intentions you have, but i hope that telling Liam the truth is included in them. You have to stop messing with him, because he loves you how i love Harry, and it's not right that you treat him like this after everything he's done for you"

I nodded and looked down, sniffing.

"I'm scared of hurting him. I don't know how to tell him, and everytime i've tried he came home with a surprise"

Louis sighed and closed his hand in a fist
"If you don't tell him now, more time will pass and he will suffer more. Sooner or later it will happen, he'll catch you kissing or he'll simply open his eyes. He'll be destroyed"

He was right. Too much time was passing and Liam didn't deserve to be treated like this.

"I'm going to sleep in his room. You try to pull yourself together and talk to him one of these days. Do it for Liam, and most of all for Harry"

He stood up and i did the same, and came close to him, not being able to keep myself from hugging him tight.

I really loved him, he'd always been special for me, and the fact that he took a moment to talk to me and give me advices on things that would hurt him too showed even more of how beautiful of a person he was.

"Thank you, Lou" I whishpered while squeezing him.

"Mh" he sighed while squeezing me with an arm.
"Just promise me you'll put Harry's sake before anything else. He has to be your priority. If you'll break his heart, i'll break your face"

The last words made me shudder for how seriosuly he pronounced them.

"I promise" We broke the hug and he gave me half a smile before getting upstairs.

I had to talk with Liam.