Can't get you off my mind [Zarry]-English Translation

#Alone

Zayn's PoV

I was the one who asked him to talk but i didn't really know what i wanted to tell him.

Say sorry? It would have been useless and it only would have gotten his anger worse.

Explain everything? Maybe, but where should i have started?
From that first time we kissed when we went partying at the disco after we won one of our first awards?
Or should i have talked about the period after our fight?

I kept opening my mouth, hoping that the words would have came out automatically, without a real logic link, but i ended up being silence once again, without knowing what to say.

"Zayn, if you don't have anything to say, i don't have time to loose by silently stay still while looking at you"

He was nervous.

His muscles were contracted and he had a highlighted vein on the forehead.
It looked like he wanted to jump on me to vent his anger.

I decided to tell him the truth.

"I just don't know where to start..." I whishpered slightly.

I saw him making a half ironic smile.

"Are you serious? There had been so many cheats that you don't even know where to start? You disgust me" he screamed before turning towards the wardrobe again.

"I'm sorry" I grabbed his wrist before he turned completely so i could look him in the eyes.

"I didn't want to hurt you, i-i didn't want to take advantage of you and... maybe it's true that i've been selfish, i should have broke up with you before getting with Harry, but you've always been there for me. You're important to me and i didn't know how to tell you"

He stayed looking at me for some seconds and he almost gave up. For a moment his glance changed and it almost looked like he understood me.

"You" he strongly freed himself from my grip "should have done a lot of things, but never wanted to because you're scared of loosing people, and you don't realize that by acting like this you'll always end up with actually loosing them, but also with hurting them" he screamed it all in my face and i instinctively crushed my back against the wall.

I looked down, feeling my eyes getting filled with tears, and i jumped when i felt his punch on the wall next to my face.

"You destroyed me Zayn" he whishpered at my ear, slowly raising his hand on my cheek, keeping my face still to make me look at him.

"You destroyed me, the first time, when i fell in love with you"
he put his forehead on mine. His touch on my cheek was sweet, almost a caress, and so was the tone of his voice.

"When i started taking care of you, i din't think i would have ended up with being so in love with you. I'm breathless everytime that i see you, that you talk with me, or even if you just look at me" he slowly moved his thumb on my cheek, making it go down on my bottom lip, where he pushed a little more.
"Now you've destroyed me once again by cheating on me, like i never did anything good for you and i deserved being treated like this"

I swallowed when i fealt his other hand grabbing my hip to keep me squeezed on him.

"I-I didn't want to hurt you" I whishpered while shacking because of the tears that were about to fall out.

"I know love, i know" He slowly blew against my lips "We can start over. We'll move in another house, another city, like nothing happened"

I shook my head while looking at him and feeling a tear running down my cheek.

"Zayn you love me! Harry has always been your bestfriend, and it's obvious that by living together, you could have confused the friend-love for something stronger. Let's start over, please" 
He whishpered before coming close to my lips and kiss me slowly while caressing my cheek.

I closed my eyes while putting my hands on his chest to push him away, detaching from his lips.

"I-It didn't happen just now..." i kept going "There had been things even before we fought"

He looked at me with his eyes bright and i felt the grip on my hip becoming stronger.

"You can't leave me alone... I don't know what to do without you. I-I was building my whole future to be with you. If you leave now, what will i do?" The last sentence came broken from his lips, and i felt guilty by seeing him like this.

"Liam please" i whishpered "don't make this harder" i tried to move him away again, but he grabbed my wrists and put them up on the wall over my head

"Zayn you're the best thing that has ever happened to me. You can't leave, please" he strongly squeezed the grip on my wrists to not make me run away from him, and they started to hurt

"I love Harry" i looked him in the eyes "i love him, and i can't change this" i sobbed while looking at him "please let me go"

"NO!" he screamed and i closed my eyes, scared that he could hit me, but i heard the door being opened and Liam being mooved away.

Harry came and drugged him away from me.

"Did you hear what he said? You have to let him go! You have to leave!" He pushed Liam without any effort.

"Harry" i grabbed his arm to move him from Liam.

"He doesn't have to touch you!" his eyes were darker, he was furious, and i could almost not recognize my boyfriend in that glance.

"You'll regret having chose him" Liam looked at me while closing the bag and the luggage with all of his things "You know how Harry is. When he'll get tired of you, he'll leave you and you will be alone again. You've never lived together, you're just excited because your relationship was secret, prohibited. The fact that no one could have ruined what you had because it didn't exist under the light of the sun excited you"

Harry pushed him out with his things
"Be quite!" he screamed, furious "You have to go away from here and leave him alone. You don't know a thing about us"

Liam looked at me again before going downstairs

We understood he was out when we heard the door slamming.

"Did he hurt you?" Harry whishpered while looking at me, and he took my hands in his, leaving kisses on their back and slowly going up on the wrists.

I shook my head with my eyes bright and looked at him.

"I love you, Harry. Never leave me, please. Even if between us won't be good, promise me you'll always be there for me" i looked at him with my eyes filled with tears while squeezing my fists on my shirt.

I knew he would never hurt me, but i needed certainties. I needed to hear it from him and be sure he cared about our relationship as much as me.

"Hey" he raised my face to make me look at him while drying my tears, leaving little kisses on my cheeks "I'll always be here for you babe, never doubt it. When i wasn't, it was just because i thouht i didn't do enough to make you be fine, but i would never leave you for any reason in the world. Trust me, Zay" he whishpered before leaving a kiss on my lips that i immediately returned.

We kissed sweetly and without any rush. We took our time to be able to feel that one was there for the other.

I wasn't alone anymore

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Hey guys
Again, i'm sorry for the long wait, but i hope you'll forgive me after this, in my opinion, very nice chapter.
What do you think? Do you trust Harry? Did Liam really needed to react like that? lmk :))