Spooky Action at a Distance | Frostiron

That's All a Part of This Freakshow

Loki could see the sun coming up, only making him feel worse. Physically, he was better, but he didn't have any energy. He looked at his palm, conjuring his seidr. A green mist appeared in his hand, not as strong as he would've liked, but it was there. It was progress.

He'd meant to sleep, but what was the point? He'd only be woken up by a nightmare. Besides, was he safe to do so? Could he really risk it? He felt defeated. What could he do? He'd never be seen for who he was. He'd only ever be the titles forced upon him. He'd only ever be seen as the god of mischief, silvertongue, trickster, monster. He'd never be anything else. He couldn't shake Tony's thoughts out of his head. He just wanted to help. He wanted to make sure the mechanic was safe. The human had seen an article mourning the death of Howard and Maria Stark, and his thoughts turned negative. Loki knew that he was drinking to avoid the feelings so he tried to stop him. He knew what that was like. He knew what it was like to want to feel free, to have a method of doing that but only to be denied by those who tried to care. He knew how that felt, and he knew that Tony was only reacting out of that, but it still hurt. It's as if the human knew every single way to hurt Loki and he just let loose. It hurt.

The god watched the sunset from his window. He hadn't been in the room before. When Tony was showing him around, he passively said that it was Loki's room, but they both knew they'd be sharing the human's room. Loki didn't think he'd ever use that room, but there he was. Curled up in the corner of the room, leaning into the wall. He couldn't stand to be on the bed. The floor felt right. It felt fitting. He didn't know why, but he felt like it was better to sit there. He supposed it was the comfort of having something to lean on.

He'd hoped that it would be a new beginning. Being with Tony, he could be happy. He could forget about everything that happened and they could be happy together. Nothing would ever come between them. If only it was that easy. He was beginning to lose hope. He hadn't had hope in so long, but when him and Tony fell in love... he felt it. It pushed him to get better. Now... what was the point? He'd never be happy. He'd never get anyone to see who he really was. He'd never be free, so what was the point? Nothing would ever be okay. Not really. He wished it could be, but he'd learnt enough to know that it could never be okay. He'd never be okay. He was a lost cause.

Loki finally found the motivation to move. Well, the motivation was the come down and he didn't want to face his problems. Not sober, anyway. He made his way over to the drawer, pulling out a bag of white powder. He'd missed it. He hadn't been able to get ahold of some in years, and he found that he'd missed the high. It wasn't anything compared to some of the things he'd tried on Sakaar, but they were good enough.

Anything that would help. No matter what the cost.

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Tony woke up with a groan, his body feeling too heavy to move. He felt warm. That was unusual, he thought. He was normally cold when he woke up, purely because of the ice block he shared a bed with, but said ice block wasn't there. His eyes snapped open, seeing he was alone. That wasn't good. He remembered their night going well. Well, he couldn't remember much of it, but what he could remember was good. Apart from Loki threatening Clint, that wasn't great, but the night got better. He didn't know what was going on.

"Jarvis, where's Loki?" The mechanic asked as he got out of bed.

"Loki is in his room, sir," The AI replied.

Tony hesitated. Something bad happened. He couldn't remember what it was, but it must've been bad. At least he was still in the building. At least he was still safe. That's what the mechanic thought, anyway.

"Play whatever footage you have from last night."

A hologram appeared not far from the mechanic, relaying the events of the previous night. After requesting for it to be sped up, the AI increased the speed of the video. It was a long night, Tony remembered, so he wanted to get through it quickly. He got changed as he watched it, having fallen asleep in his clothes. He told the AI to slow down when he saw something between him and the god change on the screen. He looked annoyed and Loki looked sad. They weren't saying anything, they were just looking at each other. Then Tony moved away from Loki and she left not long later.