Oblivion // h.s

H U R T & C R I E S

K I A R A

My phone dies as I sigh.

"God, help me. I know your there." I whisper.

The hurt, guilt, pain, I feel it every time.
I hear the cries of my body when it aches after the destruction I've caused it.

I want humor, I want love, care.
I don't want oblivion, unloved, mad.

I plug my charger in, then plug my phone. I go outside in to my kitchen as I wait for it to charge.

I go to the kitchen to get a Gatorade from the fridge.

A couple knocks were heard at the front door. I rush to open it wondering whose here at twelve in the morning.
"Hey beautiful." He smiles showing those beautiful dimples. I blush slightly feeling a bit embarrassed at how bad I look right now. Dull eyes and bags like old saggy boobs underneath them."Hello my lovely Harold." I giggle greeting him. Harry smiles and walks in. I walk behind him in to the living room. He sits on the couch while I lean on the wall.

"What are you doing here now?" I ask smiling, he always does this. Coming at such a late hour.

"I don't know, couldn't sleep. Plus I haven't spent time with my best friend such she started working." He rolls his eyes playfully patting a seat next to him. Which indicates he wants me right next to him. I happily obliged.

"Really? Because I remember how you did the same when you were in that boyband." I giggled. My head lays on his lap while the rest of my body is streched out on the long couch. "I was so busy with tour." Harry chuckled. He's laugh brings such love. "I could've came along." I fire back, not wanting to lose this arguement. "Yeah.. but the boys brought their girlfriend's and my mom just had to come. So all the slots were taken." His bottom lip pouted then stuck his tongue winning. I roll my eyes having just the white show and him chuckling.

"Why are you up early?" He asked grabbing a piece of my hair to play with. "Mmm, I just couldn't sleep. Thoughts were running and racing." I shrug turning my head to face the television that wasn't even on.

"Oh I see, well good thing I came." He smiles reaching for the remote. Which he didn't succeed and made me laugh. I reached and handed it to him. He stuck his tounge out and rolled his eyes once again. I laugh within myself.

He's so weird.

Harry was always and is always there for me. When I didn't have a date to a dance or a formal he'd always ask me. When I fell off my bike he'd rush to my side to help me. Harry even almost got suspended for getting into a fight with my ex-boyfriend, who cheated on me. That was in high school though. But it wasn't all him, I was there for him just as well. Harry always had trouble with himself and I'd always tried to help him. I still do, Harry isn't always a happy trooper like he puts himself out to be. When he cried about the boogyman in his room I rushed to his side to protect him. When he was so scared of talking to the pretty popular girl across the room, I'd be the one to introduce her to Harry. And when she broke Harry's heart I was the one who almost got suspended for punching the shit out of her.

A bunch of happy and sad times that I'll never regret with him. If I didn't have him in my life.. I don't know what the hell I would do. I heard him humming along to his or him and his band's song Night Changes. It reminded me of how I love singing and wanted to be like him one day. I've never ever told anyone that, I'm just scared. Singing is such a huge issue for me, I love singing but what if others think.. I'm not as good as I think I am. Or I'm just not good enough. I sang the next lyric from the song without even realizing. My eyes go wide and I cover my mouth. I shot up and sat there looking at Harry.

Harry looks at me with wide eyes shocked clear in his face. "Kiara Bennet." He says sternly. His face relaxes yet with a smirk and low eyes. My heart is beating incredibly fast he wouldn't .. reject me right? Oh my god.. I just sang in front of a professorial singer knowing I can't sing. I feel horrible.

"I told you back in drama class to be a singer instead of being an actress." He smiles widely, showing his beautiful dimples. "Wait what?" I say completely shockingly confused.

"Kiara, Love, If you think you've never sang in front of with me with such a beautiful voice you must be very dumb." He laughs. I laugh along with him.

"Hey shut up!" I say offended rolling my eyes still laughing. "I'm not dumb.. just not so bright." We both laugh.

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