Harry really knows how to throw your heart up in the air and just let it fall. He'll be your everything for awhile. You'll be his everything for awhile. People change.
Most of the time its a change that is toxic for you. But sometimes its a change where its a benefit for you. In this case, its a toxic for me. "Be yours?" I choke the word out. I'm suppose to be jumping at the thought of being his. None of this feels right though.
He closes his eyes for a brief before he talks. "I know you think its not possible. We've been best friends since in the womb. But I have loved you ever since I laid my eyes on you. I just never had the confidence to tell you. I was, still am, a lanky tall boy with a mop of curls. Nothing compared to the Justin Bieber look alikes you had. This hollow hole in my chest is there because I don't fully have you." He talks so soothingly as if its a spell.
Something inside of me falls for the feeling. I want to give in so badly but I can't. If he has loved me for so long he was going to let Chase marry me. He was going to keep it a secret forever.
"Why were you going to let Chase marry me if you loved me so much?" The question rolls off the tip of my tongue.
He was taken back a bit but quickly answered. "Because you loved him and I wanted you happy. He made you happy. Thats all I ever cared about."
That had me going for the hills. He was going to risk his insanity for mine. He was going to let me go just so I can be happy. The thought of Harold going through all that emotional pain made me feel queasy.
He runs a hand through his hair from being so nervous.
"I'm yours, Harold."
I earn a crazy wide smile from the boy. "Are you joking with me?" He playfully asks. "No," A small smile appears on my face.
"I'm never letting go." He pulls me into a hug while still here sitting on the floor.
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Oblivion // h.s
Fanfiction:the state of being destroyed "It wasn't suppose to be like this."
