Bring me Ella #JustWriteIt #FreashStart

Chapter Eight

When we reached our hotel room, I was told Cody had to go to the studio to work on his second album. Which I was okay with, but Cody wasn't. He wanted 24/7 security at my door to make sure I wouldn't get harmed.

Which I think was a little over protective, but..... He cares if I'm ok or not. I smiled at the thought of this. I decided that I needed to get comfortable, his concert was tomorrow, and a few more before our next destination. But I still unpacked anyways.

When I was done, I logged onto Twitter, to see a hashtag titled #CellaForever. "Awe, we already have a ship name, to bad it's not true..." I sighed. The kiss meant nothing to him, he wanted me to forget it completely.

I sat on Twitter for what felt like hours, which it probably was, until I heard a knock on my door. I knew it was really late and Cody would be mad if wasn't asleep. So I pretended to fake sleep, I heard my door creak open and heard Cody walk in.

"Ella? You up?" I didn't answer. I felt my bed dip as Cody took a seat on my bed next to me.

"Ella, I know you can't hear me, which is a good thing so I can say this. I-I can't say this to your face, but I spent forever looking for you, and when I found you, I wanted to kiss you then and there. At the park, I wanted you to forget the kiss not because I thought it meant nothing to me, but because I knew your not ready to be in a relationship with me."

He sighed. "I-I love you Ella, and I won't stop fighting for you heart, to keep you safe, until the end." The last part made my heart melt. I wanted them and there just to tell him the same thing. But..... I didn't have the courage.

Then I felt Cody start to kiss me again. I began to kiss back, I couldn't stop myself. I needed his lips against mine. When we pulled away, he rested his forehead against mine.

"You heard that...... Didn't you?" He said, obviously scarred of my reaction. "Yes....." I said. "I-I'm sorry." He said, before getting up and leaving ,e in my dark hotel room.

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I sat awake in my room, I couldn't sleep, his words echoed in my head. "Because I knew your not ready to be in a relationship with me." Was I ready? Or was I not ready? I quietly sobbed. The man I know and grew up with loves me, but the sad part is.....

I don't know if I love him back.

I can't tell if I truly love him, or if I just want him because of his fame and looks.

I am so confused on what to choose and what not to choose.

"Ahhhhh!" I groaned in frustration. I threw my head into the nearest pillow. 'Why is this so diffucult!" I yelld into my pillow, "Why us!" I said, I began to sob. "I-i don't know......" I said before I was sound asleep.

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When I woke up, I remembered that he had a concert today. I ran up to the bathroom and saw my face was red and puffy from crying last night.

I ran water up to my face to wash away some of the tear marks so no one could notice them. I quickly put my hair up, did some makeup, and left to meet Cody in the lobby for food.

When I got there, Cody had already gotten me some things to eat. "I-I figured you wanted these." He pointed to the muffins. "Yeah, thanks." I replied quickly, not wanting to meet eyes with him just yet.

"And.... About last night-" "No, I get it....." I cut him of. "You think I'm not ready....." I said. I looked at him, and I immediately knew this is what he feared would happen if he told me.

"O-ok." He said. After that we ate in silence, only talk we did do was when we asked if we wanted something.

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The car ride to the concert for his hair and makeup was a very awkward and silent ride. George tried to start a conversation but failed miserably. I huffed, I want things to go back to normal, but every time I try, nothing coms out.

I want us to be normal again, just us to friends.

When we got to the arena, Cody was taken away for hair makeup and costume changes, I stayed backstage and waited for him. "Hello! You must be Ella!" I heard a cheery name call. "Yes, I'm Ella you are?" "I'm Jackie, I'm one of Cody's hair dressers. It's so good to finally meet you!" She said.

"It's great to meet you to!" I said, at least now I have someone to talk to.

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There were ten minutes until the show started, and thousands of girls had made there way in and were screaming with excitement. I wanted to find Cody to wish him luck, but I couldn't find him.

"Hey Jackie?" "Hmmm?" "Do you know we're Cody is?" I asked hoping she would know. "Yes! He's just around the corner to your right." She replied. "Thank you!" I said before running off to find him.

"Knock knock! Cody?" I said. "Come in Ella." He said. When I walked in I was glad I finally found him. "I wanted, to walk with you to the area were you enter onstage." I said fiddling with my fingers. He smiled for the first time today.

"Ok...." He said leading me to the area. We got there right before he had to get onstage, he started to walk away and grab his microphone, but I stopped him.

"Go get them tiger." I said planting a kiss on his cheek and walking away. Not caring to look back at what Cody's face looked like.