You will be MINE

Here With You Part 40

Of course Kenny is dead.

Levi had left him.

He knew Farlan was lying when he said Kenny was waiting for him.

It was so fucking obvious but he didn't stop to think what would happen with Kenny if he left him alone.

He just thought about himself.

About what Farlan would do if he said no.

Would Farlan really hurt him? Would have he hurt Eren?

Levi didn't know but now he had a feeling that Farlan was capable of putting them both in a coffin.

"Levi?"

He looked up and saw Eren's up close to his own. Eren was still by his side.

"Its going to be okay. I'm here. Nothing will happen to you, I promise." Eren ran his fingers through Levi's hair then pulled him into a hug.

Eren was warm. So warm he could melt.

"Eren is right. Nothing will happen to you. I'll make sure of that." Farlan stood still, observing them both on the bed. He left with one last look at Levi. There was nothing he could do with Eren there.

Levi curled up into a ball, pulling the blanket over his head. His chest seemed to weigh heavier than before and his throat turned into a knot. No words could come over of his mouth. He could feel Eren's arms around him, slowly rocking him back and forth.

He wanted to say something. Tell Eren to leave him alone in order to cry, but only whimpers and silent cries came out. 

Levi didn't know his uncle very well. They've only seen each other a handful of times and barely ever spoke to word. His mother would always be happy whenever Kenny showed up. It was never during special occasions. Just a random day like any other. Coincidentally Levi's father was never around.

Kenny would at times bring a gift. A clock or vase. Something to decorate the house with. 

They never spent that much time with each other until now.

So then, why was Levi crying so much. Why did it break him to know that Kenny wasn't alive anymore. They hadn't talked or spent time together. Levi knew little to nothing about Kenny and yet here he was, crying like a little boy. Was it because Kenny was his only relative left? The only family he had? Maybe because Kenny cared enough about Levi that that he took him away to protect him? 

Why were tears spilling from his eyes as he held onto someone? 

Was it guilt?

For leaving Kenny alone and vulnerable? Levi practically pushed him to his death. 

Kenny died because of him. It was his fault. His fault.

"It's my fault," Levi said in between cries, "I shouldn't have left! I should have stayed! He wouldn't be dead right now!" He held onto Eren, his knuckles were white.

"It's not your fault Levi. It's not. You didn't do anything." Eren held Levi tight and close to him. There wasn't much he could do, but he would do his very best to help Levi with this. With anything.

Levi shook his head and buried it on he crook of Eren's neck, staining the others shirt with his tears. 

After a while, Levi had fallen asleep, tired from the crying. Eren laid Levi down on the bed and covered him with the blanket then left the room after giving his lover a kiss on the forehead.

Kenny's death didn't happen because Levi had left. 

It was because of Farlan. He probably didn't want Levi to witness his own uncle getting murdered so he took him away. They were probably going to kill Levi as well. He took Levi way from that scene. But Levi and Eren weren't the only ones hiding.

Farlan was also on the run. 

He had helped Levi escape, or at least that's what Eren hoped for. All Eren could do is assume the worst and the best. The best was Farlan helping Levi. The worst was Farlan getting Levi out here in order to kill him. That could be a reason why he didn't want Eren there. He could be sure about nothing. All of this was a mess. No one knew what was happening and he couldn't ask Armin nor Mikasa for help. He didn't tell them anything and there wasn't a way for them to communicate with each other.  

Whatever happened, Eren would be there to protect Levi.

His train of thought ended when he reached the top of the stairs. The door was slightly ajar so he went ahead and walked into the cabin. 

Farlan was sitting on the sofa, his stare fixated on the fire. He hadn't noticed when Eren approached or at least that's was Eren thought. Once he stood next to the fire place, Farlan looked up at him. 

"How's Levi? Is he still awake?" Farlan leaned forward rested his elbows on his knees.  

"He's sleeping now. Fell asleep while crying." Eren stayed put in his spot with is arms crossed.

"I thought so. I could make out his cries from all the way up here." He shook his head. "I didn't know how he would react. When I saw his face... it was like he already knew what I was going to say and once I confirmed it... fuck." Farlan covered his face, "I didn't want him to know. Not until everything was better. But I knew he would hate me if I did."

Farlan's hands went down again. His eyes were glassy but no tears would come out. Was he holding them back?

"It's better like this. Levi will get better with time." Eren, for once, didn't want to talk about Levi. He wanted to get to the bottom of this.

He sat next to Farlan. He recognized it was a bad moved if the other man ever decided to attack him. 

"What do you know about what happened to Kenny? Do you know the people who killed them? Are you one of them?"

Farlan stayed silent. His face had disbelief written all over it. 

"How can you say that? I'm trying to protect Levi! Not hurt him!" Farlan stood up in a swift move, "you have no right to accuse me of anything. You have been the one who has damaged Levi the most. Not me." 

Farlan grabbed a coat that was laying on a chair and left the cabin. Eren looked out the window and saw him sitting down on a front porch. 

He rather freeze to death than be confronted.

Eren laughed while shaking his head. Farlan didn't give him any answers but someday, they'll come up by their own. He was debating whether telling Levi about what he thought, but that make make his lover even more distraught. 

"I'll make Farlan tell me the truth. Tell hell with waiting."

Eren went into the kitchen, grabbed a knife from a cabinet and headed outside.