what is love? love is pain, love is butterflies and stomach aches . love is looking out a window pane tears dripping looking like you in the rain for someone you dont even know or for somebody you may never see again- Mgk
"To look back on my life and to see all that i had to go through to be here, i think it was worth it. I love and appreciate every single one of you whether i tell you everyday or not. i do. You guys are the reason im standing here now. You guys are the reason why i graduated with an 3.8 gpa and have a scholarship to LSU"
I always wanted a graduation party but i didnt expect to be going to Lsu.
"Hey congrats again babygirl"
Matty is so proud of me, and im so thankful that he never gave up on me. Matty lives in Ohio now his house is off campus and he told me he is planing on staying up there after college. He also met a girl, Karen i really wanna meet her from what he says she should be fun to be around. im just sad that he wont be by side to keep me from trouble like always.
"Congrats"
"Hey congrats Leilani"
its awkward walking through this crowd to get to the most important people. Usually the important people sit up front but i didnt want them to have spotlight, i didnt need them up front to show them what they mean to me. they already know, i try to tell them daily.
"Im still mad you made us sit in the back"
I love Sebastian, im glad our relationship bloomed. I even talk to Ashley every now and then.
"Well i already told yall why, but did you guys like my speech?"
"Of course baby"
My mommy and sister decided to move, my mom was just waiting for me to graduate first, theyre moving to Louisiana to be close to me......... well us.
Colson and I
I'll never forget the day he came back, and til this day it was the worst day of my life.
I had never cried so much
I had never been so depressed
i had never been so happy or excited
i had never been so silent
it wasnt like last time, the last time he came back people knew, it was a surprise for me. this time it was a surprise to everyone.
He showed up out of no where, i dont know if he knew i was at Sebastians house or not. but he showed up with Maurice by his side, he looked exhausted like he had had multiple breakdowns. he was at his weakest point i could see it.
my tears had just stopped, Sebastian had just made me feel like i could breathe again but just for a moment, the second i laid eyes on them, Maurice and Colson, the tears flowed once again, but they felt like honey, so sweet and rolled down my face so slow. i didnt care if i only saw them for a second that was all that i needed merely a glance at my future.
Maurice had curly dark brown hair, he wasnt as cubby but then again he was at least a year old. a whole year i lived miserably. i cried everyday, they only thing i had going for me was my education, so i stayed in books i kept mainly A's i went from school to matty's, i never went home. i was emotional drained. It wasnt that i hated my friends or my mom or sister but i hated myself. everyday wasnt a bad day, i went out some nights mainly with Ari and KeShaun. but every moment for me was heartbreak.
"Hey babe you okay?"
"Yea fine"
Colson and Maurice lives in Louisiana, thats where Colson always ran off too. He has a nice house, four bedrooms three stories. He wants me to live with them and its not far from campus. i just hope i can handle being a part time mom and being in college,
Maurice is so precious, he really seems to love me, sometimes he even calls me mom. i was taken back the first time he called me that, and it was extremely weird because it was a couple days after they had came back, Colson wouldnt tell me why but Sebastian did.
Colson had told Maurice that i was his mom, he used to show him pictures of me and talk to Maurice about me as though i had just went on vacation like Colson and I had been together that whole time. like we never broke each others hearts. like we hadnt been separated that whole time,
