Darkness From Above
If you close your eyes does it always feel like nothing changed at all -Bastille
"Sebastian can you leave me alone omg!" Its been hours and he wont leave me alone.
"K ,Just cool down I wanna talk and have a drink or 2 with you"
I havent even drank anything tonight and dont plan on it. Sebastian reminds me of what I used to like, how I used to be.
"Fuck. Leilani come on Im not gon beg your Ass anymore.!"
He is so sexy mad. his grey eyes get bigger and darker and his muscles are heavenly but I cant go there . I wont, he isnt something I need in my life. I cant take it anymore. Me being here with people drinking and I cant drink.
"Im going home. " Home. I cant go its past 11 and My mom would freak. I'll walk to Ari's if I have too.
"No.Your.Not. Come On We Are Leaving."
"Were are we going Sebastian" His name is too long. I cant believe I went with him I just wanted to leave that party and he seemed very determine to drag me along with him.
"To get a treat. " He looks so focused on the road I wonder what Brian looks like while driving.
Shit! I havent talked to him today, I feel kind of bad. Hopefully he is still up ' Hey Brian you up~ L ' Im so lame. He texted back! that fast
'Yea Im surprised you are but then again who needs beauty sleep when they look like you' If I was lighter I'd be blushing, Thats so cute. That made my night already.
"Who you texting? I wanna see who can make Little K smile so hard" Fuck I forgot about him
"Can we go for Uhmmmm" I need to make a get away 'Brian where do you live x L ' Its to late for my house & Ari has the key to hers. Hopefully Brian comes through
'I live by that Dairy Queen on Florida Ave, the 3rd house down why' Thats like 10 minutes away from my house Cute .
"Sebastian I want Dairy Queen"
My plan is in action, 1.Annoy him until he gives into Dairy Queen 2.Go to the bathroom 3. Run. What a nice little plan, I thought of by myself
"Im going to the bathroom" There is a door out on the side by the bathrooms,
It only took 5 minutes to get to Brian's but there was only 1car at his house weird. I knocked on the door and waited for Brian.
"Its late ." Ohhh, I dont get a Hey or Nice to you just a its late . I know I shouldve went home
"Can I come in or " He opened the door wider and let me in
"Why arent you at home. Is something wrong?" Yes Of course
"Nope just wanted to stop by" Lies arent the best but There easy
"Stopping by 12 at night....... Nevermind , Whats up" why does this feel like Deja vù Like nothing has changed in life like I will always come back to what Im used to.
"Nothing Nvm Im going home" Irritation isnt what Im feeling , more like Anxiety . I have no where to go, me being stupid , I hate myself at times. I make choices in the moment not thinking of the consequences.
Right Now I need a place to sleep and charger cause my phone is on 10% sadly. Im still in Brians house after he asked me not to leave if I had no where to go. He looks so adorable in his Pj's like a little big kid
He has on a Mickey Mouse onesie
but its un zipped by his waist & he has a white T shirt underneath. His hair is ranked to the side and his face full of worry .
"Brian I can go if you want. Ari should be leaving the party" He shook his head.
"Come On, You can stay here. My parents left for the weekend and my brother is already sleep." Wait he has a brother
"You have a brother?" he laughed
"Yea he is 6 tho, " Awh Cute. He led me up stairs to his room. He threw me a oversized shirt that Im not wearing.
"Where am I sleeping" Im so tired and my mind is everywhere, I need to tell Shay and them where I am
'Guys I left , Im by Brian & its not like that' Hopefully she gets the message before morning.
"Leilani are you listening. you can sleep in my bed with me"
Im tired so what the hell
"Wake up. Leilani . wakey wakey"
Leave me alone Im tired.
" Leilani you have to get up ."
Shit. I forgot Im at Brian's house I guess I really do have to get up
"Briaaannnn ." My voice sounds terrible and he just laughed
"Yes ?" I rolled out of bed literally rolled and ran to his bathroom.
My hair was a mess, He has to have at least one brush. Yay I found one.
"Leilani come out of my bathroom, you look fine." Liar I look a mess but came out any way.
"I can take you home but I have to drop my brother off at his friends house first" Im not going home but okay .
"Okay, when are we leaving." Cause Im starving, didnt eat lastnight. Speaking of last night I need to check my phone. 5 messages 'Okay Lei Lei, have fun see you in the morning x Ari' , 'Tell Brian I said Heyyyy x Shay' ,
' BabyGirl Sebastian been looking you said you left without him. You good x Matty' 'Leilani why arent you answering your phone xMatty'
'I'll see you Monday Kellz x Unknown' What the fuck, how did Sebastian get my number. Fuck Matt probably gave it to him
"Leilani met Alex my little brother" Alex is adorable, he is missing one of his teeth , he has Green eyes instead of Brians brown and has dirty blonde hair. They dont look a like at all. Alex gave me a hug
" Hey buddy" I knelt down to be at his level " Are you Brian's girlfriend cause your pretty" Awh So cute
"Thank You but no Im not."
Brian blushed, Awh he is shy.
"Can you sit with me in the car?"
"Sure.." Alex practically dragged me to the backseat of the car
After We Dropped Alex off Brian Keep asking me where do I wanna go. " Can you take me to Ari's ? Its like right by the school" Hopefully Ari's Mom cooked something. He nodded and turned the music down.
"What happened last night?" This question was bound to be asked sooner or later. I didnt respond, I dont know how to. Its bad to lie but I dont want him to worry
Brian pulled the car over
"We arent going anywhere until you tell me what happened"
Fine Fine Fine, I guess I have to tell him
"I was at a party and got stranded... yea stranded with an unwanted person and we were near by your house so I left." Well I didnt lie just didnt tell the whole truth. I really need to ask Matt if he gave Sebastian my number .
"Stranded? Uh huh who were you with & why did you leave. & I know you werent with Ari or Shay"
Damnit, The truth will set you free
"I was with Sebastian & He was being an Asshole so I ditched him at DQ." His face got red , He was
mad. but why Him& Sebastian have 2 totally different outlooks on life. Brian who is smart and cares for school & grades then theres Sebastian who like his sister only cares about 'living' or being a hoe as everyone else calls it.
"Why were you alone with Sebastian , Do yall talk or something" A lecture , great
"Brian Stop. No we dont talk we are just friends, Acquaintances if anything. Calm Down Dad" He looked at me stupidly after I called him Dad, but He was acting like a dad so I dont care.
"Whatever." He drove me to Ari's and just waited for me to leave.
"Dont Be Mad At Me" He just ignored me and stared at his phone, I took his phone and reached my hand to grab both his cheeks and make him look at me
"Brian Stop. Your making me feel bad." He just stared at me Dumbfounded. So I kissed him,
Hard and then soft when he kissed me back.I only pulled back cause I was out of breath .
"Are you still mad at me or" He smirked and said "Yea If Everytime Im mad you kiss me like that."
I smiled and walked to Aris door
"Ohhhh Leilani Im telling Matt!" Shay saw me kiss or in her words Make Out with Brian. Idk what telling Matt is going to do Idc
"Ari how was the party?" I heard it got shut down but Idk what for
"Bad . Matt was looking for you & when he couldnt find you he shut the party down& almost beat the shit out of Sebastian." Damn
"Why was Matty looking for me"
She shook her head and shrug her shoulders
"Idk but your lucky you sent that text last night but Matt still mad at you that you left" I need to call him then , I ruined his party. I need to start thinking more Im so stupid
"You know he is going to be even more angry when he finds out you didnt go home last night. & You know he is going to ask ." I found out that lying to Matt was worse than lying to my Mother, he found everything out. I guess there are always Pros & Cons in this Brother sister thing. I just hope he isnt that upset. He knows how much progress Ive made in such little time. Im not that girl anymore........
I Think .
