we're living in a fantasy. i feel it when you dance with me. it's a feeling like you need to be my lady, my baby, yeah. cant you see? i'm talking about eternity.
lotus flower bomb- wale, miguel
twenty-one. that's how many springs luca had lived. twenty-one years of laughter. twenty-one years of smiles shared. twenty-one years of tears. twenty-one years of her grace on this world.
luca woke up in arizona. it was so peaceful. it was the first time in a while that her soul was that at ease. she laid in his bed for a while, responding to the people who had already taken time out of their day to wish her a belated birthday to her. devin stood in the doorway, his arms crossed against his chest and a smirk playing on his lips. luca looked up from her phone. a smile on her lips as she pushed herself up, her hair wildly falling from the bun she wore as she looked at devin.
he didn't say anything. instead he walked towards the bed and his body hovering over hers, as her legs went to wrap around his hips, "happy birthday, ma." he uttered as luca nodded her eyes trained on his, "which present you want first?" he asked as luca took her lips in between her teeth as her fingers trailed down his chest.
her beady eyes were enough for devin to end it all. he was so in love with her. though he would never admit it and would never act upon his actual feelings. he knew that he was failing. he had lost. now he was trying to find a way to make a comeback because falling in love with her was never the plan. he wanted to keep her close and all to himself. he was so selfish. to the extent of still having causal hookups while wanting to keep luca with him forever.
"what did i tell you about selfish people?" the moon asked the stars who looked down at them. a frown. destruction beyond measure and beyond repair would happen. one would fall harder. on their knees trying to pick up the broken pieces while the other tried to tear down the walls that they had built to get back to each other.
"i just don't understand!" the stars cried afraid of what would happen to luca.
"i don't think he understands either," the moon muttered, "poor stupid ,little girl, she never learns does she?"
devin nuzzled his face in her neck, light, feathery kissed being left on luca's neck making her giggle. a smile on his lips as he looked at her again. he was ruined. he felt so at ease. the turmoil long gone and his soul was fulfilled. they healed each other in the most odds ways. it was just a matter of accepting that they were destined to be together— would it happen?
luca looked at him again. she was on the clouds. she was floating. she was on this euphoric high that once you come off leaves you empty. it leaves you longing from that high. it leaves you miserable. his hands travelled to her thighs. the feeling of his warm and calloused hands made the goosebumps of luca's skin arise. his eyes studying her features. her skin reminded him of caramel. so soft and sweet to taste. he learned that his favorite scent was coconut and vanilla because that's what she smelled like. it was so warm like her eyes and it hugged him just like her laughter.
so what happened next after this? what happens when two people refuse to love. when one is so broken that she confides in another person to break her because she would rather have him destroy her than never to him again.
devin wanted this moment to last forever. because if he knew that if they both went back to reality he wouldn't have her. they would leave and go about their lives but when they were together they felt like they were on their own world. enjoying their company and wanting to slow time down. devin couldn't do it any longer, his hands slowly were making their way to her waist band. his fingers tips dancing around the hem of her panties. he liked seeing her like this. eyes closed and jagged breaths leaving her lips. it boosted his ego. made him feel like a man. while it made luca feel like she was being worshiped like a goddess. her body a temple. the garden of eden. the forbidden fruit.
with one swift movement luca was left in one of his shirts. her eyes now open as devin looked at her. his gaze hungry. his lips looking so tempting and luca wanted to have them on her forever, "you keep looking at me like that and they'll be a mini me in nine months." devin smirked, adoring the way her eyes looked at him. the only eyes he adored.
luca shook her head, bringing him closer to her chest as she slipped off his shirt leaving her completely naked underneath him. her legs were quick to wrap around his waist and they're bodies molded so perfectly. like they were made to fit. puzzle pieces completing each other, "boy, shut up." luca whispered. noses being pressed. his minty breath on her face. luca trailed her pointer finger across his lips. watching him as she did so. time was frozen for a moment as they felt their heart beats.
devin took her hands and pinned them over her head, shaking his head because he felt like if he kept looking at her eyes he would drown in them and never want to come back for air, "are you gonna fuck me or not, booker." luca looked at him, the sultry look that brought devin when they first met and that kept him in.
that's what she liked about luca. how easily she could flip the switch when she needed to. she knew what liked and how she liked it and wasn't afraid to let the person know. her confidence but at the end of the day, she was loving. she easily could it too. it was easy for her. it was easy to love her too. easy to fall in love with her. he loved her the most when her hair was pulled up and all she wore was his t-shirt. she loved her the most when sat on the grass with her eyes closed. devin was fucked.
"he's gonna ruin her." the stars were crying. they could feel the pain that luca would feel eventually and it was so unbearable and so strong. she would crumble and the stars couldn't help her.
"they're ruining each other."
