I Solemly Swear That I Am Up To No Good

Cake thats actually y'know edible

Remus, Remus was all Sirius could think about then and now, Remus the boy he loved, the boy who went through hell every month, the boy who was now alone, the boy Sirius destroyed without even trying to.

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2nd November 1974

"3...2....1..." Remus, Peter and James where counting down the seconds as Sirius grinned. The four boys where sitting in a circle on the floor of their dorm, having stayed up all night waiting for this second.

"Happy birthday Sirius!" the three boys shouted at once as they threw them selves onto the boy to hug him.

Crushed underneath the other three boys, Sirius couldn't help but smile as one by one they climbed off him to give him his presents.

Peter had got him sweets and zonkos products, James had got him a broom care set from quality quidditch supplies and Remus got him a pair of doc martens like the ones Remus had that Sirius always stole of him.

Still grinning the boy thanked each of his friends one by one.

"happy birthday!" Lily, Marlene, Mary and Alice emerged through the door frame and came over to where the boys where sitting.

"i brought the cake" Lily said excitedly

"we where making the cake though?" James questioned as he stood up to get what Sirius assumed was the cake he had made from behind his bed

"well i know, i just though Sirius might like some cake that's actually, y'know edible" Lily replied.

James scowled holding out a sloppy red cake with yellow blobs in the shape of letters that if you looked really closely  resembled "happy birthday Sirius" he put the cake in the middle of where they where sitting, stuck a candle on top, pulled out his wand and opened his mouth.

"oh Merlin, don't tell me James is lighting the candle?" Marlene exclaimed when no one replied James nodded and opened his mouth again "ill do it" Marlene interrupted "James will light the dorm on fire, here give me the wand"

"no, i'm very capable of doing the incendio charm myself, thank you very much" James replied pointing his want confidently at the candle

Marlene made a face as everyone looked nervously at the cake "incendio" James said and to their surprise the candle lit and nothing else was set on fire, Sirius let out a breath he didn't even know he was holding in.

"happy birthday to you

happy birthday to you

happy birthday Sirius

happy birthday to you"

everyone sang and at the end Sirius blew out the candles and wished that it could be like this forever. That he would get to be properly happy like this for as long as he lived.

"what did you wish for?" Marlene asked

"i cant tell you or it wont come true" Sirius grinned, if any wish he had ever made or would ever make would come true he hoped it would be the one he made today.

How wrong he had been. Now the date was 3rd November 1981. It was his 22nd birthday. The first birthday he had spent without his friends, his proper family since he was 10. He was 22. Remus would turn 22 in March the next year. Remus would be alone too and James, James would never turn 22, he would never do anything ever again. He would never laugh that idiotic laugh of his, never smile that lopsided smile, never push his glasses up his nose because they where falling of his face, he would never see Sirius again, he would never forgive Sirius.