Purple Eyes - J.H

Chapter 28

⚠️⚠️ talks of overdose and verbal abuse and mention to sexual assault

Jaden pov

"Hey stranger." I said as sat beside her, leaning against my car.

"He seized." She stated. "He seized in the coma and they almost weren't able to bring him back. They put him on stronger medicine that almost halted his brain functions. Apparently the doctor dosing him didn't take into consideration how weak his immune system was. He overdosed in the night time. The overdose didn't trigger the heart rate monitor until his heart had completely stopped almost three hours prior to them calling me." She mumbled as she kicked the rocks at her feet. She was showing signs of continuing to talk so I just let her.

"I'm sorry for leaving like I did. I just really needed to get out of my head. I came here with the intentions to talk to mum, get high and forget about everything even just for a little bit." She chuckled lowly before continuing. "Well two of those three things happened. One of them more real than the other. I was just sat there talking to her gravestone smoking the blunt when she replied. I thought that because I was high I was hearing things, so I ignored it. But then she came out and was like 'it's rude to ignore your mother baby.' And then I started freaking out cause I thought I had got some laced shit and then she touched me and, well you know the rest." She sighed.

"Am I crazy for wanting nothing to do with her?" She asked.

"Of course not bub. Forgive me for saying this, but what she did was completely fucking selfish. And in no way are you crazy for hating her for doing what she did. You are allowed to feel how you feel baby." I explain.

"Yeah but she was just trying to protect herself from him." She argued. This poor girl is way to easy to manipulate.

"Don't let her words play over in your mind until her excuse is reasonable. Because it is in no way reasonable. No matter how bad things got, she gave herself a responsibility when she had you and Sam. To protect you two at all costs. She failed to do that because of her own fear. So don't you dare try to justify her actions because there isn't a justification. She had a choice and she made it out of fear. She should have stopped to think about the impact on you and Sam, and how much more danger she was putting you two in. Do you hear me?" I ask her. She doesn't look at me and refuses to answer. I grab her jaw lightly and force her to look at me.

"Do you hear me Blair?" I ask more sternly.

"Yes I hear you Jaden." She replied in the same tone.

I nod approvingly and pull her onto my lap. She straddles me and hugs up to my chest. I pull her head against me and start to run my hand through her hair.

"You're allowed to feel stressed bubs. Especially in the situations you have been put in recently. But in no way are you alone in it. Okay? Me and my mom and my sisters are here. I'd like to say my dad too, but I'm pretty sure that's out of the question." I mumble. She chuckled nonchalantly.

"Oh I know that's definitely out of the question." She says against my chest, sending vibrations throughout my torso.

"What do you mean baby?" I ask her confused.

"I can't tell you. I don't want to fuck anything up between you and your dad." She says sitting up and looking into my eyes.

"Tell me Blair." I said. She shakes her head no. I don't say anything to her but I look into her eyes intently, waiting for her to crack. She sighs before she gives in.

"The day my dad got arrested, I was putting away some of the trash when I heard shouting. He walked up to me and started yelling at me, telling me that I was putting your family in danger and a bunch of other things. I just laughed in his face and told him he was lying. But there was one thing that he said that I know isn't true, but ever since he said it the thought has just been eating away at me." She looked down ashamed.

"What did he tell you Blair bear?" I asked as I tucked a piece of hair behind her ear.

"Please don't hate me." She asked.

"Of course I wouldn't baby. What did he tell you?" I repeated. What did he tell her to have her worrying like this?

"You're not using me are you? Like, you're not using me for sex right?" I sighed. Of course that's what he told her. "I don't believe him in any way, but there is just a small part that is replaying that possibility and it's always on my brain." She rushed out.

"Bub, calm down. I'm not mad at you. Of course I'm not, I would never do that. And I know you know that. I also know that sometimes it's hard to ignore those constant thoughts so of course I wouldn't be mad. He's just pissed off I told him what his whore of a girlfriend tried to do when I last visited." I explain as I see her collapse out of relief.

"What did she try to do? If you don't mind me asking." She said as she started to play with the hair at the nape of my neck. Holy shit, why is that so relaxing?

"Of course I don't. She basically tried to get me to sleep with her multiple times even after I said no each time before. She just wouldn't take no as an answer and dad didn't believe me, so he told me that because I'm a boy, that can't happen." I mumble as I lay my head against her shoulder.

"Well that's a bit stupid isn't it?" She mumbled back. I let out a laugh.

This is one of the things I love about Blair. When you tell her something serious she doesn't really know how to react, so she will just give the reaction she thinks is best and it's so cute because they are often little comments like that. She can take the edge off of any situation just because of her mindless comments.

"I mean of course that can happen. He's just an old man." She says making me laugh again. This girl has my heart and doesn't fucking know it.

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A/N - so Mr Hossler has admitted to Blair having his heart. Does Blair feel the same? Who knows. We'll find out soon. 👀👀