The Big Secret

*Owen POV*

Since the Ireland game I couldnt stop thinking about her. Her bright blue eyes and dark brown hair. I couldnt bare to look at my wife, Chloe. I constantly feel guilt that I did that to her. Yes our marriage has been rough lately, but that's no excuse. For better or for worse.

"Babbbeeee" she came running down the stairs. "What's wrong?" My body started to panic. She pushed something into my hands "were having a baby" I looked down at the positive test. I froze. My thoughts started sprinting.

"Owen say something" she waved her hand in front of my face "were having a baby?" Her smile dropped. "What's the matter Owen?" I smiled back at her "it doesnt seem real" I hugged her, lifting her up, but my stomach was doing back flips.

"I'm going to tell my mum! But we can tell people when we get to the 12 weeks" She ran back upstairs leaving me staring at a positive test. How could she fall pregnant? I thought she was on something? We dont have a stable marriage at the best of the time, never mind introducing a child into it.

I grabbed my phone, I immediately searched her on Instagram. Well that was easy to find, but private account? I requested to follow her. Hoping she would respond quickly, but why would she?

Days went by and Chloe got more and more excited about the baby. Booked the scan in 6 weeks time, started planning the nursery and started buying unisex baby clothes. Chloe had gone to her mums I made the excuse of training. I kept checking Erin's Instagram, she hadnt deleted the request as of yet.

"ErinC has accepted your follow request"
"ErinC has followed you back"

My heart skipped a beat, so I immediately messaged her. She seemed blunt. I'm sure Conor already knows what happened and since hes already told her I'm married.

ErinC: it's fine, its happened now. I wish I knew that way it would have never happened.

Does she regret it? I dont, I should for Chloe but I dont. This will probably make Conor hate me even more, I dont know why he does? Even my Dad has said he hates my guts. But theres never been any reason too, my other team mates get on with him, but it's just me he shows the cold shoulder. Hes a great guy and an even better rugby player. We continued to text but her texts got shorter. I get it she doesnt want to talk to me, but I want to speak to her. I dont know why.

I have to tell her about the baby, she deserves to know from me and not from social media. But I dont want to rub it in her face. But If she told anyone Chloe would never let me see the baby. She would restrict me any access, that's the kind of person she is.

ErinC: well congrats but dont worry it's not something I'd brag about.

Oh crap she is really not happy, but shes right. Why would she brag about it? I'm really hoping she hasnt told Conor, I suppose if she had I would probably get angry messages off him and my father. Conor would no way keep it to himself. I know he would tell everyone, destroying everything I built.

"Hey babe, how was training" Chloe burst through the front door. I immediately locked my phone, pushing it into my pocket and jumped up "yeah not bad thanks, hows your mum" "shes so excited about the baby" her comes more baby talk.

Dont get me wrong I am happy about this baby. But I'm not happy in this marriage, luckily I am occupied with training a lot of the time. We used to be so happy but she changed, she became very jealous of everyone and everything. Turned into a bit of a control freak, I wasnt allowed out with the lads or anything. Maybe this baby will bring us back together. Make us as happy as we used to be?

"Me, Mum and Courtney are going shopping once weve found out the gender. I'm so excited!" I havent seen her this happy in ages! "I know, I cant wait to find out if it's a girl or boy" I placed my hand on her stomach. This is exactly what we needed. Something to find our love again.

Chloe went for a bath. I pulled my phone out my pocket and reread mine and Erin's conversation. I felt bad for her. All I could form was "I'm sorry" I was an idiot, but she was just so beautiful. Plus sometimes it's fun to wind up Conor even more. Like I know it's a dick move, but it's fun.

I know my presence winds him up, but his face was a picture. By the looks of it, he is in love with her. I hope he sees what hes got in front of him before she finds someone else. She was incredible in many different ways, if you get what I mean.

She is beautiful, funny, sassy and easy to talk to. Her sass on the pitch and off the pitch was definitely what attracted me to her and she seems genuinely nice. I deleted the conversation and hoping to delete the memory of her from my memory.

I've got a family to think about now. It's not just a marriage I'll be destroying it's a family.