The Big Secret

Confusing

The events over the last few days played over in my mind, only four more days and I'll be on his turf. Owen wants to be in the baby's life but who knows how. Me and Luke are official, so the spare room is now going to be the nursery. I keep playing with the ring, spinning it around my finger, it doesn't feel real.

"Guess what" Luke ran in from training. Which got Elton all excited. "What?" I couldn't help but admire him as he greeted Elton. "I've got a clear schedule for Sunday, so I can come to the game with you" Luke hugged me. "That way as well if Chloe or Owen turn up I'll be there" my stomach dropped and so did my face.

"What's wrong?" he looked at me, his smile disappearing. I looked anywhere but at him. "Erin" he kept pestering me for an answer and I could tell he was worried. "You can tell me anything. It's us against the world"

"Owen's been in contact" Luke's face hardened. "When?" I hated telling him about Owen. "Your away game" I instantly felt guilty and Luke paced into the kitchen, with me following him. "Why didn't you tell me?" Luke didn't even sound angry, I thought he would be raging at it and all I could do was shrug.

"I'm not angry, I'm disappointed you felt like you had to hide it" the guilt consumed my body. "I met up with him" my eyes dropped to the floor. Like a child being told off. "When I asked you about Owen on the phone, you quickly hung up the phone" I forgot about that. "I was with him then" can the world just swallow me up?

"What did he want?" Luke eyed me up as he leant on the counter. "To give me some stuff to help out with the baby and to invite me to Chloe's gender reveal Sunday" the words fell out my mouth faster than I could comprehend what I was saying. Luke started laughing. "Is he serious? Owen has invited you?" I stood there confused "Chloe did and Owen passed on the message" "This guy is comical. But at least he's doing something. Where is the stuff?" "My car, I haven't brought it in yet. Not sure if I even want it" Luke didn't say anything just picked up my keys and walked out the house.

"That's from Chloe" I pointed to one bag, as Luke rummaged through the bags "That's cute. Baby shark will be just as talented as it's dad, not his father" Luke admired the rugby themed baby grow. I expected him to be angry, but he was the complete opposite. I'm confused. I dont know why Luke refered to Owen as the baby's father rather than just Owen. "He even got you vouchers?" Luke laughed again, like a physcopath this time though. "Why don't we go to the gender reveal and show him what he's missing?" When did Luke become so confusing?

"What's the point?" I shook my head. "Luke he wants to be in the baby's life he just doesn't know how" that soon got Luke's attention. "Which means he will never step up and keep doing things like this behind the scenes" he pointed at all the baby stuff that was laid out on the floor, which Elton was sniffing. Baby's first outfit with a nice pawprint from Elton. Luke was right, he will never step up.

"Let's just go for an hour, then we can use the excuse of travel to leave. Chloe will be happy to see you" Luke got up and wrapped his arms round me. "You've got me, you don't need him. This baby is mine and so are you, so let's show it off to the world and leave Owen sweating" why was manipulative Luke so attractive? I nodded slowly as I buried my head in his chest.

"I feel bad for Chloe, I can't keep pretending to be her friend. She seems so nice" Luke laughed. "She isn't as nice as she makes out to be" that soon got my attention. "She wasn't very nice to Tom's girlfriend" "too many questions! Tom has a girlfriend? But Chloe is so nice to me!" I shook my head in complete shock.

"Next time we go for an away day down Sarries you'll be coming and keeping Tom's girlfriend company away from Chloe. Let's just say I can see why Owen is unhappy" Luke shut down the conversation, but I want to know more. Why is she so nice to me and horrible to other women?

"So when do we get to go baby shopping?" Luke looked so excited. "Whenever you want too" "Shall we do a London shopping trip Sunday? Stay down there and come back Monday morning?" How could I say no to his face? "I'm not training until Monday afternoon and you'll be on a rest day" how does he know my schedule already?

"Okay, let me book a hotel" Luke rolled his eyes. "I'll sort it" he kissed my head. "Lukeeee" I whined like a child. "Not up for discussion" hate when he does this. Why can't he let me sort it.

"When are we finding out what we're having?" I ran over to the table and grabbed the letter. "Two weeks today" we both stared at the letter. "I hope you're a baby girl" Luke spoke to my stomach. "I'd be happy with whatever it is" Luke agreed.

"Shall I text Owen? Saying that we are coming?" Luke just shrugged. Hey, me and Luke will come to the baby shower. Only for an hour or so though. Hope that is OK?

Why would I even ask if its ok when he invited me? Sure, look forward to seeing you... Chloe is excited to see you too.

Why are men so confusing?