Sarah is being a surrogate for her sister Liz
I sat down with my sister Liz for lunch at her house, when she looked at me like the nerves inside her were about to burst out.
'whats going on, you seem nervous'
'I need to talk to you'
my heart dropped
'what about', I said reassuringly, 'you can tell me anything Lizzy'
'well you know how we have been struggling to have a baby for the past couple of years'
'Liz, what's going on', I interrupted
'will you be our surrogate'
'like carry the baby for you?'
'you're right, its silly'
'Lizzy, nothing would make me happier', I leant forward pulling her into a tight hug feeling overwhelmed with joy
'thank you, thank you, thank you. I can't believe- just thank you', liz replied starting to dwell with tears
'oh Lizzy, you'll be such an incredible mother'
'and you don't think holland will mind?'
suddenly I realised that I had completely overlooked the most important factor in this situation. Holland.
'I don't know'
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I stood in front on my door. one that I had walked through hundreds of times, yet now on the other side of this door was a person, my person, who's life might suddenly break half.
'Oh! Darling thank god you're home, can you reach this for me', holland said frantically which made me laugh to myself
'sure love', I reached up and grabbed the vase handing it to her, to which she thanked me with a quick kiss.
'you know you really need to stop leaving things so high up, I mean what's hiding up there anyways'
'holland I need to talk to you'
'I tell you I was almost considering ordering a vase online thinking that would take less time'
'holland'
'but then you came and home and-'
'holland', I said staggered, as I wrapped my arms around her, burying my head into her neck, trying to hold back the tears that were already forming in my eyes.
I am making a huge mistake.
'my darling', holland sighed and pulled me closer
'I need to talk to you', I whispered back
holland walked backing me up against the table and then I sat on it, still holding onto holland as she carefully stood in-between my legs and traced up and down my back
'I love you', I said pulling her closer and pressing a kiss into her neck
'my angel. talk to me', holland said pulling back a little bit cupping my cheeks
'Liz asked me to be her surrogate'
'what did you say', holland didn't bat an eye lid
'I said yes. I don't know what I was thinking, I call her and tell her changed my mind'
'do you want to do it?'
'I have you, and I don't want to loose you'
'darling, I said do you want to do it?
'yes', I sighed dropping me head
holland kissed my forehead lacing her fingers into mine
'then do it. what's stopping you'
'I don't want to lose you', I sniffled
'why would you lose me'
'because you we don't want kids, and its not ours, and this is a lot to take on in a relationship'
'darling the only thing that will change is that I will have so many more incredible memories with you'
'I don't want to get attached, I don't want you getting attached'
'you're all I need. you have to do this. you'll regret it if you don't'
'what if-'
'then we will face that problem when we come to it'
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it had been about three weeks since I got inseminated and about two since I decided that I would carry lizzys baby, holland has been so supportive and loving, and me on the other hand I have been a nervous reck.
the doctor said that I was allowed to take a pregnancy test so liz headed over
'turn around!' I laughed and both holland and Lizzy stood in the bathroom staring at me, ready to watch me pee on a stick
'I've seen you pee plenty of times' Liz protested
'holland hasn't' I argued back
'yeah I have' she laughed
'liar', I said shocked
'remember that time you were really drunk and you could hardly walk straight, you need to pee, you couldn't do it alone so I-'
'okay that's enough. fine'
--
time seemed to freeze in those three minutes, we waited for what felt like forever.
'its been four minutes' holland said looking at her phone
'I can't look' liz and I said in unison
holland walked over to the bench and looked down at the stick that had all the answers
'what does it say', I said growing impatient
'you're pregnant'
'what', liz half screamed
'you're having a baby'
I think we all started crying at the same together and we all exchanged hugs and kisses laughing and cheering for the next nine moths ahead.
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liz and I held hands as the doctor poured the cold liquid on my stomach, today was the twelve week scan
the heart beat echoed through the room, and we both burst into relived smiles and laughs
'very healthy baby you have'
'thank god'
'would you like to know the sex'
'yes' liz quickly replied and I nodded along
'well you are having a very beautiful baby girl!'
my mouth hurt from how much I was smiling, and the smiles in that room almost seemed contagious
--
I walked through the front door and holland immediately walked up to me
'how did it go?'
'its a very healthy baby girl'
'a girl!'
I let out a loud breath and collapsed into a hug with my love
'sweetheart is everything okay'
'perfect'
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