Saved // a Demi and 5H story

Pool

"Hey Alex you wanna come swimming?" Maddie asked as she ran past me in her bathing suit. Dallas, Demi, Eddia and Diana were already outside in the pool.

"Nah I'm good." I called after her. I plopped down on the couch and went onto Twitter. There was no way I was going swimming. I had too many scars and cuts on my arms to cover with bracelets. I had started cutting on my hips, but it wasn't as satisfying as my wrists. I scrolled through my timeline and saw all of the hate directed towards me.

Alex doesn't deserve Demi

Shes so fat and ugly!

Demi should return her to the orphanage!

She should just kill herself, she probably bothers Demi

I put my phone down and looked out the window from the couch. The sky looked dark and heavy, like it would start storming any second. From my angle I could see everyone in the pool, laughing and splashing each other. I wish I could be like them. They looked so happy, spending time together. I wish I could be normal like them, and not hate myself every waking minute and be covered in scars. I tore my eyes away from the window, and focused on my phone lying on the table. I had gotten another message from Chelsea this morning, which had caused me to cut. Demi didn't know about the messages and she still hadn't found about the cutting. I always tried to look happy, but lately it was becoming more difficult. I had put on a fake smile everyday, and it was getting harder and harder to hold up. This was my third day here, and I was still nervous around the family. I was more comfortable with Maddie than anyone else besides Demi, and we hung out a lot. I don't know how much longer we were staying, but Demi said we would stay for a while. She hasn't been around her family for a while and she needs some down-time before her next tour.

"Alex?" I heard Demi's voice somewhere in the hallway.

"Ya?"

Demi appeared next to me with a towel wrapped around her.

"You ok in here? You wanna come swimming?"

"No I can't"

"Why?"

Did she forget that I had scars all over my arms? I gestured to my wrists and Demi's face turned red.

"Oh ya sorry I forgot." Demi mumbled apologetically.

"It's fine."

"You want me to stay in here with you?"

"No it's ok."

"Ok baby please don't do anything bad while i'm gone ok?"

"Ya."

Demi kissed my forhead and went back outside. Truth is, I wanted her to stay in here with me. I was lonely. But I didn't want to force her too, I could tell she wanted to spend time with her family. I went back to my phone and scrolled through instagram. I saw that Maddie had posted a selfie of her and Demi, and I liked it. It must be nice to have siblings. I heard a roll of thunder, and rain drops started hitting the windows and roof at an alarming pace. I heard a few screams and laughs outside, and the porch door slid open. I heard everyone walking upstairs, probably going to get changed. The heat was almost unbearable. I was wearing sweatshirts or long sleeve shirts everyday, but I forced myself to wear shorts. I didn't like people seeing my fat legs, but I didn't want to pass out from heat exhaustion. Demi still hadn't told anyone about my issues, but I think Dianna knew something was up. She had experience with Demi before she went to treatment, and I think she was catching on to me.

I felt something poke my shoulder and I turned around, seeing Maddie wearing shorts and a t- shirt.

"Were gonna get Dallas back for scaring us last night." Maddie said with a mischievious grin.