The Parker Boys

Chapter 16

Chapter 16

I slowly wake up with a fuzzy state of mind, part of me thinks I might have drank last night. That was until I felt a pair of muscular arms holding onto me in a protective manner. That is when I remember my very fast coming panic attack the night before. I tense up just remembering his face in mine, but it really wasn’t his, it was Coles.

As if instantly feeling my tense body and uneasiness Cole’s beautiful blue eyes flutter open to meet mine. His eyes are filled with sleepiness but also a hint of concern, “Good morning” he says to me simply.

To say I was surprised was an understatement. I was shocked the hell out of my mind. He didn’t ask if I was okay, he didn’t even try to bring up last night. “Uhm...morning” I breath out my throat cracks due to the roughness of my crying last night.

“Would you like some breakfast?” he offers me as he stands up from the bed. I instantly miss the warmth and safe feeling I had while he held me, I pushed that aside. I nod at him and gesture to my bathroom letting him know I’ll be down in a bit.

Cole lightly smiles at me and leaves the room. I make my way to my closet and grab something simple to wear and make my way into the shower.

While in the shower my mind starts to wander. What brought on the attack? Why is Cole not questioning me? Do they know? Did Lisa tell them? At that thought my heart plummeted, they can’t know. I don’t know what I would even do if they found out. I mean yeah, sure, I was gonna tell someone, maybe Cole or Caden, but for now I’m not ready.

I quickly finish in the shower and make my way downstairs to find all the boys sitting around the table quietly. I stand there awkwardly for a moment before Caden speaks up, “You know you can sit donw right? We don’t bite.”

Just like that the tension leaves and I sit down in between Caden and Cole. I look up to see Conner and Cody sitting in front of us and I give them a small smile, which thankfully they return.  Throughout breakfast no one brings up what happened last night which I’m thankful for but also slightly disappointed. Wait, Why would I be disappointed? I shake the feeling away immediatly.

I get up and head out of the dining room when I’m stopped by Caden, “Do you wanna talk about it?” he asks me softly when I turn the corner to the stairs. My heart beat accelerates and fear starts pumping through me.

On the outside I remain calm and lightly smile at him, “Not now” is all I say before he nods and let’s me go upstairs. Back in my room I lay on my bed and begin to think then an idea pops in my head. I quickly jump out of the bed grab my wallet and keys and head downstairs.

Right as I’m about to walk out the door Cody steps in front of me, “Where do you think your going?” he says like he demands an answer.

“I...uhm...I’m going out for a bit” I can’t tell him where I’m going, it’ll ruin everything. I ahve to see her though, it’s not an option.

Cody looks at me with the upmost scrutiny then sighs, “Be careful, okay?” I quickly nod and make my way to my car. I get in and begin driving to my destination.

**3 Hours Later**

I finally arrive at my destination and park the car across the street. I can’t seem to move, I’m frozen to my seat. Why did I ever think this was a good idea? I stare across at the cemetary, looking over the hundreds of grave markers.

I know some of you may be thinking, Why is she at a cemetary? It’s because I’m here to see my mom. Yes, you heard me, my mom. Some of you may believe that she’s buried back in virginia, but no my mothers family wanted her back home so they took her and buried her here.

Now back in virginia we do have a headstone for her just to mark her existence in the small town we lived in but this is where her body lied. I never knew my grandparents because after my mother married my father they disowned her. Saying she could do better, boy were they right.

I finally find the courage to exit the car and make my way into the graveyard. I slowly walk around the area until I see her name. It’s like a knife got plunged through my heart, I drop to my knees on her grave and I cry. I’ve been crying alot lately, but this pain is too much to bear.

I finally say the words that I’ve held back for so many years to her, “I’m sorry, mom. I’m so so sorry. It’s all my fault. You shouldn’t have been on that road that night. You shouldn’t have had to pick me up. You would still be here and dad wouldn’t be mad at me. I’m sorry.”

More tears cascaded down my cheeks as I poured my heart out to my mother. I told her how sorry I was, and how much I missed her, I told her everything. Finally the sun began to set and I realized just how long I’ve been gone. The boys are going to be worried sick.

I said goodbye to my mom and promised I’d return when I could. I quickly got back in my car and made my way back home. I realized how much lighter I felt after I talked to my mom, maybe I can tell someone about. I start to wander if I can trust the Parkers, the anser immediatly came to me. Yes, I can.

A small smile tugged at the corner of my lips and I’ve finally decided, I’m gonna tell them. I’m not sure how yet but I will. After another three long excrutiating hours I make my way up the driveway and park the car. I walk inside to find it eerily quiet. 

I called out for the boys but there was no answer. That’s when I heard the soft whispers of a woman. My eyebrows furrowed in confusion, I made my way to the living room where not only all six Parker boys but also John  and Lisa. “What are you guys doing home early?”

Lisa looked at me with sympathetic look, “Honey, we have to tell you something” The way she said those few words made my heart sink in fear. What could be so bad to make them come home this early? Why were they giving me those looks?

I understood the moment the next few words left John’s mouth, “You’re father has escaped from prison.”