The Parker Boys

Chapter 5

A/N

Picture of Cody

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Chapter 5

The next morning I wake up due to the bright sunlight shining through my ocean view window. I groan and roll onto my side facing my door. I groan when I see the clock only reading eight in the morning.

I slowly drag myself out of bed and grab some clothes and walk into my en-suite bathroom. After my shower I get dressed in a pair of shorts and a shirt and throw my hair up in a ponytail. I'm surprised to be welcomed by silence when I emerge from my room.

Where is everyone?

I finally find the kitchen after about 10 minutes of wandering around. When I get there Lisa is cooking breakfast. When she turns around and spots me she gives me a polite smile "Good morning, Kat"

" Morning" I reply politely

Lisa looks at my confused expression and lightly laughs " They are at school" and then it dawns on me that it's the middle of the week and there are no breaks going on. How much school have I missed.
 
I start thinking about my last school and how I was always bullied there. I wonder if here will be any different. Probably not. I sigh and ask the question I dread to hear the answer to "When will I be starting school?"

Lisa inspects me carefully before replying with an answer I did not expect "Are you sure your ready to go back to school?"

I stare at her dumbfounded, Why wouldn't I be ready to go back?

I shake the thought from my head and look at the woman in front of me. She looks to be studying me carefully with concern. Why would she be concerned?

That's when it comes back to me, she thinks I'm fragile. She thinks I just been through a traumatic experience and I can't stand to be near other people because I'm frightened. I square my shoulders and look right at her with my most confident look, "Of course I am. Why wouldn't I be?" I challenge her.

Lisa flushes and goes back to cooking, "Well I....You...No reason, so would you like to start tomorrow?" she asks me now slightly embarrassed and uncomfortable.

I should feel bad but I don't let myself feel the guilt as I push it away. This is for the best, keep everyone at arms length, so they don't get hurt. The more I allow myself to care the more people I hurt. I simply nod and slip on a pair of flip flops. Before I walk out the door I shout back to Lisa "I'm going out!" and close the door without waiting for a reply.

I'm walking along the Parker's private beach staring out at the ocean. I see a dock and walk out on it to the edge and sit down dipping my feet into the water. I don't know how long I sit there for but the sun starts to set.

 I sigh and push away my stray thoughts and stand back up ready to head inside when a thought hits me, Why has no one come to get me? It's obviously getting late and I haven't come back. I shake my head and continue my walk back to the house.

Once outside the door I hear laughter and I freeze. I slowly make my way around the side of the house, I probably look like some crazy stalker outside the house. I peek through the window and what I see shocks me into silence and causes a pang of longing to go through my heart.

Inside the house is a perfect family with no problems in the world. Lisa and John are sitting on the love seat watching their boys wrestle on the ground laughing and trying to pin each other down. Typical boys. But the think that shocked me was not just this family, but the carefree atmosphere and the love shining in their parents eyes.

Tears spring to my eyes remembering the love my parents used to look at me with. I try to push away the tears but they force their way through. I hold them back telling myself that I'll hold them in till I get to my room. I rush around the house and push my way inside and rush up the stairs. The laughter instantly subsides. I make it to my room locking the door behind me.

I collapse on my bed and let the tears flow. My heart feels like it's being ripped apart again. I hear the shouts from outside my door but I choose to ignore it. I don't want to ruin the perfect family with my life. After awhile the noises dissipate and I'm left to the silence. I find myself exhausted so I drift off to sleep, maybe tomorrow will be a better day.

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The next morning I'm awoken by my alarm alerting me it's time to get ready for school. I shut off the alarm and climb out of bed and walk into the bathroom. I look in the mirror and groan at my reflection. I have a rat's nest of hair and dark bags under my eyes which are red and puffy.

I take a quick shower and get dressed looking to impress no one. I walk out of my room with my school bag and head downstairs. I walk into a chaos in the kitchen. Lisa rushing to feed all her children, John getting ready for work struggling with his tie, and a rush of boys eating and fumbling with their items.

I watch in amusement as everyone is looking to get situated. Cody grabs his keys and shouts "Conner, Caden let's go!" the twins follow him out. The room seems to diminish in size. I watch as Lisa is getting Chance and Cameron ready to go to school. Once they head out the door and John follows, I am left with Cole. Great.

Cole looks over at me and smirks "Looks like you'll be riding with me." I groan but follow him out to his car. Holy Crap! No Way! No way in hell! He looks at me with a mischievous smile.

"There is no way in hell I am getting on that..that thing" I sputter out

Cole shrugs "Yes you are, or you can walk" he replies with a cocky smirk. Knowing I have no idea where I'm going. I glare and mumbles a few choice words.

As he climbs onto his motorcycle. I hesitantly climb on behind him after putting on the offered helmet. I wrap my arms around his waist and hold on tightly. As he speeds off down the streets towards our school I hold on for dear life.

Once we arrive at school I numbly get off and hear Cole chuckling at me. "You'll get used to it." he tells me before walking off into the school.

I look up at my new school and sigh. Today is going to be different.  Everyone is staring at me. Great.