Theyna one shots, headcanons, etc.

Jealousy and Insecurity Aren't too Different

A/N: I read something very similar to this fanfic but with a different pairing and wanted to try it out for Theyna.

Disclaimer: I don't own anything.

It's stupid, Reyna understands. She knows that Rebecca has a girlfriend of her own who's also in the Hunt for the gods' sake. And she knows there's absolutely no good reason for her to be jealous because Thalia was hers and completely hers and Reyna knew how much Thalia loved her.

But that doesn't stop the ache in her heart that she feels as she stares too long at a picture that was part of the photo album the Hunt made about their latest successful trip. It was a picture of Thalia and Rebecca, a rather new addition to the Hunt, where Thalia was sitting with Rebecca on her lap as the Hunt shared stories around a huge campfire. And it's making Reyna's skin crawl and her chest feel tight as she views how Rebecca is holding Thalia's hand as they laugh together.

She can't help the fact that she's jealous when Thalia was the first person in her life that was totally and completely hers to love.

It also doesn't help that the Hunt has been chasing a ragtag group of monsters for ages, which means Reyna hasn't seen her girlfriend for a whole month. Thalia was on the other side of the country and could be in any state on the entire east coast, so Reyna couldn't even use Nico to shadow travel to see her on the drop of a hat (Reyna will never live that one down).

So, yeah. She's jealous. Jealous of the way that Rebecca gets to touch and hug Thalia. How she gets to sit on Thalia's lap and laugh with her and listen to her voice and see those bright blue eyes in person.

It also doesn't help that Rebecca may as well be a model with her looks. She's all blonde hair and bright green eyes and evenly tanned skin. And, even worse, she's a genuinely amazing person. That fucking sucks. She'd be easier to hate if she weren't so likable.

Reyna's completely jealous. So much so that she doesn't even accept the Iris message request from Thalia that comes through as she's working on some new patrol schedules. Not responding because of how ashamed she is at her own jealousy. At how irrational her thinking is.

It's the first time in a long time that Reyna skips out on their usual weekly Iris call.

Because Thalia shouldn't have to be right next to her to reassure Reyna that she loves her and that no one could make Thalia leave her.

Reyna knows that- that the feeling is irrational. She doesn't have to be told that. But it's become a constant war between her head and rationality and her heart's stupid emotions. Warriors aren't meant to show what's going on inside. They put on a front; a front that Reyna mastered years ago. Nico was actually the first person to look through it a bit, but then Thalia came along and blew that front out of the water singlehandedly. So the war came in small battles, and most of the time her head could guide her through it.

The problem was that Reyna's heart was winning this one. Her head can't make this red hot feeling inside her subside to clear thinking.

So she cuts herself off from the world for a bit. She tells Frank that he has to handle the patrols now and walks right out of the offices without another word.

She keeps walking and thinking and walking and thinking until she realizes she's ended up at her favorite hot spring. Thinking, Oh, fuck it., she submerges herself into the warm water, fully clothed, and listens to the nature around her, giving in to the sensation of the water and attempting to stop her thoughts completely.

Yeah, right. Like she could ever really shut off her mind. Reyna climbs into bed later that night, accepting an uncomfortable sleep because all she wants in that moment is Thalia Grace wrapping her arms around her and whispering into her ear, telling Reyna that she loves her and that everything was going to be ok.