When the lights go out [Malfoy x reader story]

3 curses and a family

I struggle a little to eat and do things with my hand wrapped into bandages, but it seems way better than not having my hand at all, so I don't complain about it to anyone. Bellatrix gives me a lot of attention, whether she does it to be nice or because she remembers more of our past, than I do is something I want to ask her in a while. After I finish my meal I offer to clean the table, but Narcissa just laughs and rejects the offer snapping her fingers, when everything on the table disappears. "Do you perhaps," Draco starts and stops for a second, but his mother just nods her head so he continues "want me to show you around a little?" "Oh that would be awesome, because I really don't want to wander around like a lost puppy." I reply, before thanking the two older women for the meal, which they served me. We leave the big dinning room and he again offers me his arm, which I just take. It is not the right time to ask, but I cannot hold back, so I do. I say his name and he smiles mildly at it, then I ask for a few details of our past. Of my past. He hesitates for a moment or two, probably searching for the right words. I don't mind it the silence. "Well, a while after we met, we went to Hogsmead and had butterbeer together and bought sweets. It was already a little chilly outside and we enjoyed time together I think. You always pretty much supported me with everything you did. Also, you were quite good at putting other's in their place. The pendant on the necklace next to your bed, I gave it to you once and you wore it quite a bit, I have the same, I never showed you, but I have it." He shows me his right hand, a big ring made of silver with a snake on it, it had green color on some parts of it. I reach my fingers out, to touch the ring and look a little closer at it. Draco let's me, so I look at it and I feel something; a warm feeling spreads inside of my heart, as if it knew how I feel about it. How I feel about the pendant. "Do you still like me?" I ask, mumbling the words towards the end of the sentence. "I always did and I still do." He admits and it makes my heart jump. "I would like to get to know you again," I give him a sheepish smile, before looking somewhere else. I think he feels happy about it. "Because I think that I like you as well, I just want to know a little more about you." "I am glad about that." He giggles a little as we walk further through the halls of the house, as he shows me around. I think we both walk slow, because we don't want to part yet, but also I feel tired and exhausted.

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That evening I struggle to fall asleep, as my brain tries to remember everything I had seen and experienced. Maybe it was better not to remember, to keep myself far from pain and melancholy or whatever I would feel thinking about it. Whatever my past was like it was better to focus on the present right now for sure. And I definitely need to get rid of those voices in my head. They keep telling me they are trapped, they miss people, but they mix so much, that I can't tell them apart. I can't tell apart what which voice says, or where they originate from. I decide to ask Bellatrix about those bad people, that try to hurt them tomorrow, she must  be able to tell me a little more and tell me how to keep them away. As I turn one more time in my bed, my gaze falls on the necklace. I reach my good hand out for it and take it. Since it's dark I cannot see too much, but I see the green shade of the pendant and it makes my heart tingle. It is the pendant Draco talked about. "I want to know why I got you." I whisper and stare at the necklace. Then I realize how silly talking to a necklace is. It is the most stupid thing I have ever done, I think. But then again I don't know that. Then I start wondering if I had ever given him something as well. I should ask him tomorrow. I should generally talk to them tomorrow, about the future and everything. I lay the necklace back on my nighstand and close my eyes. The voices turn quieter and my eyes grow heavier, then I drift off into a deep sleep.

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