When the lights go out [Malfoy x reader story]

Someone Who Cares

Sharpen my talent? I kind of got what he meant, but everything I could think of right now were my parents. "How?" I ask him lifting my head a little so I could look at his face. He was smiling again. No, it was more of a silly smirk. "Well, Y/n you need to know things, before they actually happen, you need to be able to predict what spell someone wants to use against you.  Everything that happens, needs to be in your head first. And the most important, you can't make people know, that you are in there." He tells me tipping his index finger against his forhead. I couldn't see if it left a mark on his skin or not. It was still to dark. The sun began to rise by the time Lupin finished his explanation. "So what you mean is, that I need to become a whole other level of mind reader?" I ask him letting myself rest on a big limb on the ground. "Yes, you are truly a fast learner Y/n, brilliant."

I wasn't. I knew what he just told me, but to me it still was a mistery how I could be able to hear the voices clearly again. I was a weak person by nature, always pretending I wasn't. I was the girl, who pretended not to be weak, who pretended not to cry, but looking back at my whole childhood, I had cried more tears than anyone I knew. I thought the breakup with Draco, would go over me, without furhter strugle. I still feel crap, when I think of him. He was my first, very British and bloodstatus oriantated love. He was weird, sometimes unreasonable, but he risked his life for me and he was always being nice to me. There were things going on between my friends and him, but this never meant, I couldn't love him.

"Let's do it. I will give my best, no I will do my best!" I speak, gatherting all my courage. He believed in me, so I needed to belive in myself as well! "Fine Y/n, close your eyes and relax. You need to always be calm. Now, try to read my mind. I will think of something simple."

I closed my eyes, listening to the sound of the wind, going through my hair. It was really cold by now. It soon would start to snow. The turtle neck was protecting my neck from the wind and I was able to burry my chin in there. My mind was free. It was the best state to read minds. Everytime I used to have a free mind for a short amount of time, thoughts would come into my head. But this time I couldn't even hear myself. I waited, for two minutes....five minutes....ten minutes. My mind was blank and silent. The courage I had just gotten, was leaving my body. "It doesn't work. I can't hear anything. There is nothing coming." I tell Lupin lowering my head in shame. He took his time to help me and I couldn't even do what he simply had asked for. "It's fine Y/n. You can get better day by day. There is no need to rush anything. Let's just go home and have some breakfast, oh dear, you don't even wear a jacket." He says gazing me the way my dad had done so often. Yesterday I felt lonely, today it felt like there was someone. Someone who cared for me. I nodded my head and walked next to him on the way back. The sun was still raising, but already stood high above the ground.

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Lupins fast , yet calm steps made me calmer than I had been. I did not feel guilty for failing anymore. "Thank you." I mumble, looking into another direction. "No worries, I know how you feel." He replies smirking. "You can read minds as well?" He started laughing, leaving me confused. I stopped fo a second before catching up with him again. "No, not at all. Didn't Hermione tell you?" I shake my head curiously. "She can keep secrets, that's for sure. I, Y/n, am a werewolve." Wow, out of all these things, I would have never thought that he was a werewolve.  My face lit up. He was special. He had something about him, that was harder to control than mind reading and still he did not loose his patience with me yet. "Wow, that's, well I suppose it's only awsome to hear, huh." I gaze him as he warmly smiles and nods his head.

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"Granger, I need to talk to you." I say grabbing her arm. She is about to resist, when I turn around again. "Please, I beg you to help me." I mumble. It's hard to say. I can't stand her. I can't stand any of the Griffindors. "What Malfoy?" She snapps as we reach a silent corner of the hallway. "It's about Y/n, " I start, when she interupts me. "You broke up with her, what could you possibly  want." "I did this to protect her,  but I can't be completly without her!" I snap back at the bushy haired girl. She frones as soon as I finish my sentence. For her I am probably an asshole. She thinks I don't love Y/n sincerly. "If I didn't love her sincerly, do you think I would be standing her with you?"

"So you really love her, don't you?" I nod. She spinns around to leave, but stops and turns around. "Library, bring me a letter for her, tell no one about it. And if I was you I wouldn't mention her parents." She tells me witha stern look on her face. "Why?" I ask hesistandly. "Because they were probably killed by death eathers. They found Y/n yesterday. No word to no one or I will never send her to letter, understood." She almost barks at me. I nod my head again and watch her leaving.