When the lights go out [Malfoy x reader story]

Trust

The door opened and the first thing I saw was a head with ruffeled hair. Lupin I thought. As he finally got himself through the door, he sat on the chair close to the small desk. "Well Y/n I would usually ask, if you were doing well here, but Looking at what happened today, I would rather not ask this," He started "But there is something I would like to ask you..." He looked at me just as calm as he had done before. "That is?" I asked trying to bring my voice under control. "Your let's call it Talent." HE replied smiling. I wondered if he was Always positive or if he had his bad days as well. At the Moment he seemed very nice, but also he was so mysterious. There was something About him, that was like a secret. If I wanted to know what it was, I had to gain my 'talent' back. Until it came back, I had never known how much a part of me it was. I only remembered a couple of events from my childhood in which I felt happy using them, but the more I thought about it, the more I felt like I could help people with it. "Sure." I agreed with a nod. "So tell me more about it."

I stopped for a second and thought. There was much to say, but also nothing.

"Well I don't exactly remember when it first appeared, but I remember how I only told my brother about it, but that was just because I was scared I would get a letter from the ministry. He told me it was something special. He even tried to help me to control it, it was so much fun. Oh and then he and I used it for games, so we could win. When he died I lost it again. I mean from time to time I felt like I still had it, like I could feel it. There was this typical stomach feeling. I don't really know how to explain everything." I sat up leaning against the wall behind me. My whole Body ached. My stomach cramped, my Hands where still shaking. I was twisting my nail around, a habit I suddenly seemed to recrute again. It then after some time ripped on the left side of my thumb nail. I remained twisting it while watching Lupin doing whatever he was doing Right now. He seemed to think, but also changed his Position on the Chair. "I see. You seem to push it to the outer edges when something dramatic happens to you. It might be the shock or the pain you feel, but trust me Y/n Nothing we couldn't fix. See you tomorrow morning then, good night." He jumped off his seat. Leaving me behind confused he ran out of the room. I wasn't very sure who's room this was, but it didn't look like it was one that had been used in some time. There were a few boxes under the bed. I didn't want to be nosy, but couldn't help myself from pulling one out. A few books were laying in there. Nothing special, except from this one book. It was about magical creatures. Suddenly I found myself reading every page carefully. I was wondering whom it belonged to.
After an hour of reading my eyes started to feel heavy until I fell asleep.

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"Y/n!" Someone roughly shook my shoulder. I jumped up grabbing my wand. My heart was racing. "Oh...I'm sorry I got scared." I mumbled being out of breath while looking at Lupin. "We are about to practice so follow me." He said walking to the door frame. "But it's like 4.30am..." My sleepy voice seemed to amuse him. "Yes the best time for some practice." He already went down leaving me some space to get dressed into the clothes Mrs Wesley had given to me.
I wore a pullover with a turtle neck and some jeans.
Lupin was waiting in the kitchen giving me a bunch of raisin bread pieces. I took them thanking him, while following. His steps were large and fast, while he seemed so calm.
Stuffing some of the raisin bread into my mouth I wondered how he would make me practice. "Uhm one question Mister," I began making him scold me for saying Mister."Okay, Mr. Lupin then, how to we practice?" I looked at him as he smiled.
"You'll see."

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I followed him through the Forrest, trying to avoid anything I could stumble over. My legs felt tired and it was as if there was still this soaked wet stockings, glued to my knees. My breath was regular. My eyes concentrated on the dark Ground in front of me. I didn't dare to ask for light, since he did not seem to need it either. Our footsteps were Pretty uniform as we walked along the small path of grass, between bushes and trees. There were a few tiny flowers, shining in the darkness. As I wanted to pick up one of them, it seemed like I couldn't, I didn't dare to kill it. As Pretty as it was, it deserved to grow more. We eventually reached a clearing, when Lupin suddenly disappeared from my sight. 

"Mister Lupin,?" I shouted, waking up some birds on their trees. "Where are you?....this isn't funny at all!"  I turned to all sides, trying to see anything in this darkness. My wand was still in my room, together with the Flashlight Hermione had given to me. My mood changed from curious to scared and angry. Why would he leave me alone? I wasn't able to protect myself from anything. My eyes got teary. Then a limb Breaking under the weight of something. I jumped around, narrowing my eyes to a lit. I could barely see my own two feet. Then from my backside another limb breaking. Again I twisted myself around looking into the darkness. I suddenly felt something hitting my arm as a few small stones hit against me, causing me to get goosebumps. My Hands were clutched to fists and I tried to overcome my fear of everything at this moment. I turned one last time to walk towards the bush, when Lupin was suddenly in front of me. I cried out, before stumbeling back and gasping. 
"Are you crazy?!" I yelled looking at him. I couldn't move yet, but my voice was working very well. "Do you want me to die? What is this crap about, huh? You wanted to help me, where in Merlins Name did you mark, that you would try to scare me to death and throw small stones after me, huh??" Tears were rolling down my face, as I yelled. He stepped a little closer, so that I could see him clearly. "Y/n. Y/n!" He grabbed my shoulders shaking them a Little so that I would finally stop yelling at him. "I need you to trust me. I want to help you and I want you to be happy, but in order to get at least one of the too, you need to trust me, with all your heart." He was as calm as always. That was probably what confused me the most. If someone would constantly yell at me, wouldn't I get angry as well? "Okay. But what is all that for?" 

"We need to sharpen your talent."

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