✔ Midnight Rendezvous I kth

xix. i was scared

Love is usually like that right?

Love isn't perfect. They are fights that happen, misunderstandings— it what happens. But I don't think I should think like this knowing that this wasn't love. It was still a no-label relationship that I attached myself into.

Taehyung did not come home today. I'll look at the bright side of things and say that he went home because he was still disappointed about the argument we had.

He wouldn't even reply to my messages.

I was about to send something to Taehyung once again until Jimin's number pops up. I was hesitant of answering as I was ignoring him these past view days— I was occupied with Taehyung. Jimin is probably calling for an answer.

"Hello?" the familiar voice said.

"Jimin! Hey- I'm sorry I wasn'—"

"That doesn't matter. Instead, come to Han River, will you?" he cuts me off.

"Su-sure..." what is up with them wanting to meet somewhere to say something. He hangs up and I just wore a hoodie and wore shorts to go out.

I walked out of my apartment and walked to Han River which wasn't far. I was nervous to. be honest. I'm not good with confrontation and I probably hurt Jimin's feelings. I walk to which area he wanted to meet and by standing afar I can already tell that the silhouette looking over the waters was Jimin.

I walk towards him with a heavy heart. I tap on his shoulder, "Jimin?"

"Hey..." he pulled me into a hug.

He changed his scent.

"I wanna say sor-"

"Hey, I don't care about that but I want you to listen to me instead." Jimin said whilst he takes my hands into his, holding them tightly.

"I know this situation is hard for you and I'm in no place to say anything about it since I haven't been in this situation before, though— I ask you to listen to me, as a person who is a part of your problem. I know you have no one to tell your problems too and it's hard for you. With all the stress and burden that was shot at you, I know that it's piled into you yet you can't release it." he held my hands tighter as tears
slowly builds up in my eyes.

"To be honest, I know you think about him when you're with me. I know you compare him with me—"

"Jimin, I didn't mean too-"

"And it's fine! I promise. But don't feel about it. Your heart clearly wants him and I don't know what's holding you back, so I ask you to listen to yourself this time. Not those guilty thoughts that's polluting your mind. I wanna know how you feel about this."

"I'm just-" I had a hard time knowing what to say. I was stuck, confused, guilty, weak. It feels like I couldn't describe my thoughts—

"scared" I was able to blurt out. All those things and all those times, fear was controlling me. I was scared that Hyunri would lose her trust, which was going to happen as I did things behind her back.

I was scared the Taehyung would leave me, then again, why? Why would I be scared when he was always doing it from the very beginning?

I was scared Jimin would not understand me, which wasn't the case because here he is now talking to the me who was so lost.

"The best thing I could say to you is make your mind up and accept what the outcome is, but you'll never lose me. I'm still here and will wait for a proper response from you. If it's Taehyung then go ahead. Your feelings are valid, don't feel bad about them."

"Jimin- I-"

"So who is it?"

"I like—" It took me a while but then it was time to listen to me and what I really wanted and my heart already made its mind a long time ago.

"I like Taehyung."